Hi i am new

Feel better?

Wow, you were only 14?

yeah i feel better for letting it all out. feel ashamed though. i should of just reported him to police rather than taking his life. yeah 14 very young. he was 58 years old.

Well, I am glad that you were caught. That road made it possible for you to get the help you needed. You may not even be alive if you had remained untreated. 14 is so young. I imagine that it will take you quite a while to be believe that you are entitled to a new life. Almost half of your life has been paying for what you did, but you are still so young. (in years, not experience).
I hope you have someone who is helping you adjust to your new freedom. To grow up from 14-24 in prison can also mold you into a different mindset than us outsiders.
To me it almost seems like you are beginning a whole new life. A new you. This can be a real opportunity fro you if you make careful choices. It is understandable if for a while you need to get this off your chest and be open about what happened to you. But unless you become some sort of advocate for mental health issues and their success stories, i strongly suggest that you put it to rest in your life, as best as you can.
Just because you have done this doesn't mean that you have to share it with everyone that comes into your life. I had some heavy stuff happen to me and I felt misplaced responsibility for it and spent a lot of time telling my shameful experiences to people. I guess I felt it was part of me paying my dues for being so bad.
You may not feel similarly, just trying to look out for you. My point is that you already paid for what you did. You are entitled to let it go now and try and move on. Not everyone in this world will understand you, but if you grant yourself this right, then their opinions will effect you less.
And I hope you get to own a dog again. You really are a puppyluva.
Big Hug,
One

Very interesting story. I wouldn't call it murder so much as justifiable homicide. I don't condone taking the law into one's hands but I think you made the world a better place by ridding it of such a person. I would rather have you in this world than the guy abusing animals. I wish you well on your journey. Please try to stop beating yourself up over what happened. Forgive yourself and move on. Sending unconditional love your way. Peace!

awwww thank you, you guys are really sweet and understanding. yeah i definately do love animals, too much as it seems as i took someones life to save them dogs. i'm going to try feel more positive now. thank you so much. so...tell me more about your self?