New Member Here

Hello my name is Angel, I have bipolar disorder and am now
in the depressive cycle of my manic-depressive illness. I am
hoping to soon cycle back to my manic side when I am up
and creating art again, and in a better/energetic mood.

I am looking forward to talking with you all and getting
more information and learning more about bipolar disorder.

Angel

If this is your depressive episode, then you must be one of the happiest people in the world in your manic episode (because you seem happy/upbeat now!). This is just a joke - hope it made you smile my friend.

take care and see ya 'round the place,
Kevin

Hello My name is Imagine. Wow it came so quick!!! Imagine my life without my past which I cant. I know I can get better
because I have peeled a few layers off this onion. Do I qualify to be here? I think so but I will write a bit to let you know about me. From what i understand my incest was on the covert side. My dad was gone alot due to military and mom always has a boyfriend when he left. She didnt try to hide it and Dad always came home which made my life miserable and confusing. I can remeber a few times being in the same room with my Mom when she was having sex with her boyfriends but I really didnt know what was going on just that it wasnt my Dad with her. I was actually a little drunk one time and I was only about 10 at the time. My Moms behavior never changed and when Dad was home the environment was cold and angry. So I am not sure where I am right now just grateful for an outlet and some feedback.
Thank You

Hi Imagine,

I think you certainly qualify for being here. Even 'normal' people qualify to be here. Everyone has problems and could do with an outlet to talk. What happened to you sounds really terrible in my opinion, but it's only now that you realise what exactly was going on, right? It's very strange that when we're young we can sense that some things that happen to us are wrong (but we're too young to know how to refuse and defend ourselves),

Hi Chucky
Thanx for the welcome. Its good to post my thoughts and feelings and not feel so alone. From reading other stories I know it could have been a lot worse than it was the no doubt it affected me greatly and to a degree still does!!! I cant change the past but some progress would be to know when I am actually experiencing something from my past in the present moment or encounter with someone. Somehow alot of this stuff is at an unconscious level and continues to mess with me, I am hopeful!!!!

Thank You

Imagine