Introduction

Hey. I am 20 years old and have a pretty good life. I am going to college full time and I used to have a cutting problem but don't anymore. I went to a 1 year program called Teen Challenge for people who have life controlling problems. (It is a faith based program). I overcame the obstacle with cutting which controlled my life for a while.

Now I am facing struggles with my eating habits that I have had since I was little. I don't throw up or anything after I eat. I also don't go days without eating since I am still living in the program but am only living there because I am a staff there. I know it sounds stupid that I am helping other people who have problems when I have problems myself but I believe God is using me to help the ministry and not destroy the ministry.

I weigh 100 pounds and I am 4'10. I mean, I'm not under weight but I have a problem with how I look and I am not happy with myself when I eat. I don't know if this is an eating disorder or not but I want to get help in this part of my life. I don't want to struggle with this for the rest of my life.

I am joining on here because I am looking for encouragements and just to see if there are any tips that can help me to overcome this. I do not expect that this site will encourage me to engage in unhealthy behavior but am hoping it will stand with me as the healing process takes place. Please don't let me just be a void on here. I would like to have somebody to talk with so if that person is you, please respond.

Thanks!

Heya,

I think it's great that you are giving back help/advice to those who are going through the same thing that you have gone through. If all psychiatrists and other mental health professionals had such experience, I think that the mental health industry would be more 'harmonious' and more people would be helped. In a certain sense, I know what your problem is, because I have been 'working' on this website for a long time, despite having my own problems (which I never deal with). As a side issue, I have Bulimia too. Are you looking for ways to actually get over your eating problem or are yuo just looking to relate to others? This is in no way a pro anorexia site, so don't worry about people coming here offering advice on how to not eat food! We clamp down on that rapidly.

Kevin

Yes, I am on here because I would like help and tips to overcome this eatting disorder. I also need people to talk to about it because my family says it is my problem.

Welcome and...
I dunno that's really all I can contribute without being rude or sounding stupid...
So...
Welcome.

Hello,

Firstly, I think caution should be exercised when you call it an 'eating disorder', as you haven't been diagnosed by a doctor or anything. I'm saying that because (as I'm sure you know) an eating disorder is a serious problem and going by that term may cause you excess anxiety or worries, which may magnify or exacerbate the eating problems you're experiencing.
I'm glad you've recognised that your eating problems are something you'd like to deal with before they get worse, that's brave. You've asked for help and tips on overcoming your problems... I haven't been using this forum for long, but I see it as offering emotional support, more than anything. I hope you find that here.
If you're looking for more specific 'instruction' (I use that term very loosely) in overcoming your problems, however, I feel that's something you'd find in a doctor, mental health service, nutritionist, etc. Every person is different and it wouldn't feel right to tell you to do x, y and z and then you'll be fine. I speak from personal experience.
I see that you're struggling and I hope what I've written is ok and helps you. I admire your strength in overcoming your previous problems (cutting also used to be a problem of mine too, it was in my life for several years), stay strong.

Your post didn't offend me at all. It was actually helpful. I'm satisfied with emotional help such as talking with others who understand me. I think I have been doing better this week as I have been eating everything insight, except for junk food. For some reason I am having trouble eating and feeling satisfied. Its like my hunger is never ending which is totally contrary to the problem I thought I had. I haven't gained anything, or at least I don't think so.

I was asked the other day if I have this problem in order to receive attention. I told them no but then I personally evaluated if that could be a reason I struggle. I don't think so but I am open to opinions. These are the reasons I think I don't do it for attention. First of all, I just enjoy the feeling of standing near people who are bigger than me because it makes me feel smaller. Also, I enjoy looking in the mirror and seeing a flat stomache when I go without eating for a while. However, I think my eyes play tricks on me because you don't geta flat stomache that fast.

Reasons why it could be for attention is because I don't care if people know or not. I don't know if its because Ive accepted this problem as part of me since I ahve had it for ten years. Its not that people react to me when they see mne loosing weight or anything. They just get angry because they can't do nothing about it. They can't control me because I am a grown adult.

The people don't realize what things affect me on the inside though such as talk about high calories and watching biggest looser and even buying their work out dvds. ^They talk about themselves, who are bigger than me, wanting to lose weight and then get mad when I want the same thing for myself. Does anybody have any imput here? (not that I need to base my problem on other peoples opinions.

Your post didn't offend me at all. It was actually helpful. I'm satisfied with emotional help such as talking with others who understand me. I think I have been doing better this week as I have been eating everything insight, except for junk food. For some reason I am having trouble eating and feeling satisfied. Its like my hunger is never ending which is totally contrary to the problem I thought I had. I haven't gained anything, or at least I don't think so.

I was asked the other day if I have this problem in order to receive attention. I told them no but then I personally evaluated if that could be a reason I struggle. I don't think so but I am open to opinions. These are the reasons I think I don't do it for attention. First of all, I just enjoy the feeling of standing near people who are bigger than me because it makes me feel smaller. Also, I enjoy looking in the mirror and seeing a flat stomache when I go without eating for a while. However, I think my eyes play tricks on me because you don't geta flat stomache that fast.

Reasons why it could be for attention is because I don't care if people know or not. I don't know if its because Ive accepted this problem as part of me since I ahve had it for ten years. Its not that people react to me when they see mne loosing weight or anything. They just get angry because they can't do nothing about it. They can't control me because I am a grown adult.

The people don't realize what things affect me on the inside though such as talk about high calories and watching biggest looser and even buying their work out dvds. ^They talk about themselves, who are bigger than me, wanting to lose weight and then get mad when I want the same thing for myself. Does anybody have any imput here? (not that I need to base my problem on other peoples opinions.