Newbie (Introduction...)

jasmin wrote:Erica, I'd love to try painting some day. You should take the Jung typology test, I think you can find it if you google it, and find out what kind of temperement you have.

I think I'll do that... thanks.

Cool! So how have you been feeling?

I've been alright the past few days but today I'm feeling really irritable and anxious; ie: I left my travel mug with nice hot coffee on the counter when I left to do laundry and then when I went to the laundr-o-mat I got even more annoyed because the stupid change machine wouldn't take my bill, so I went into a big huff and emptied the machines really obnoxiously and went to a different 'mat'. Thank goodness nobody was there.

I don't know where it came from... I guess I just can't stand when I'm forgetful and when the simplest things don't work out for me and then the rest of my day is ruined Like the change machine singled me out and wouldn't work... Right... Grrrr... I just feel like I'm so stupid sometimes to get so worked up over something so petty and then my mood carries out for the rest of the day unless something siginificant enough happens to make it better/worse. I have a feeling it would take a lot to put me in a better mood today.

I think I'm gonna make a piece of jewelry to distract myself from overanalyzing this mornings annoyances. Although I'm probably gonna freak out if my fingers are too fumbley/clammy from anxiety to do that.

Ahhh... another one of my tangents. Surprise, surprise

How are you doing? I hope all is well with you.

Thanks for checking in with me. I really appreciate it.

Oh, I get days when I'm really irritable too! These last few days I've been feeling a bit low for some reason.
What kind of jewelry will you make? Bracelet, earrings, necklace?

jasmin wrote:Oh, I get days when I'm really irritable too! These last few days I've been feeling a bit low for some reason.
What kind of jewelry will you make? Bracelet, earrings, necklace?

I'm sorry that you've been feeling low. Let me know if there's anything I can do... well I guess there's nothing I can really DO per say but... you know what I mean. Lol.

I make it all... bracelets, necklaces, earring... all different kinds but mostly beadwork... I haven't made too many rings but some

My husband and I are working on starting an online business with a friend and we'll be selling t-shirts with original graphics/slogans/quotes, bumper stickers, buttons (pins), keychains, my jewelry and i'm also gonna have a spot where people can create their own gift baskets by choosing color scheme, contents, and if applicable scent and I'll make it for them. I made my brother's girlfriend a GORGEOUS necklace and a gift basket that she absolutely loved for Christmas.

It's gonna be so great... all three of us will finally be doing what we love since we're all creative and we're gonna take so much pride in the fact that we're making EVERYTHING ourselves, right down to silk screening the t's.

Now we just mean the money for start-up but we're working on that.

Oh, it sounds like you're gonna have a really nice business. Gosh it must be fun to make all that stuff! I'd love to be a creative person. You should post some pictures of stuff you've made.

Thank you for caring, it does help. I'm feeling fine now, you?

Aye...

My world came crashing down again today. If you remember a week ago i freaked out about my unemployment benenfits... and then I thought everything was going to be ok because I thought I had an extension for 20 weeks. Apparently the Rep. I spoke with was just misleading with the way he worded things because I was under the impression that those 20 weeks were already in affect but when I called to file my weekly claim today it still says that my benefits have been exhausted.

I don't know what I'm gonna do. There's a possibility that I might have a job lined up (at a sandwich shop) but even then it would be at least another week or 2 before I get paid and the thing about that is I already had to give my landlord and a late, partial payment to begin with and now here we are almost 2 weeks into the month and she still hasn't gotten the rest of what I owe her. I'm so worried about not having at least a place to live. Also... we're still gonna be struggling even if I do get a job at the sandwich shop because those checks will be way less than what my unemployment check was every week.

We've gone with having barely any food and have struggled like this before but it was always only temporary and then things would eventually work out but I don't see how that's possibe right now. In the past we've had at least SOME SORT of alternative but I really don't see us having any way of getting out of this 'one' until I start working. The job search is thrashing my self-esteem too because before the economy came crashing down, I could guarantee myself that if I got an interview for whatever type of job; I'd most likely be offered the position (I make a great first impression) but now there's barely anything listed on the job boards here and when I've tried getting a job at a place like a fast food joint or something. They always end up calling me back, telling me that I'm overqualified. My husband says that, that's because I'll expect them to pay me more, especially since I've been working since I was 13/14 so with all of those years of working various different jobs for differents amounts of $$, minimum wage won't quite cut it.

Sorry for going off... I needed that though. (THANKS)

I'm glad that you've been feeling well and I'm glad that I can help in some way.

I'll definitely keep you posted about 'the biz' once we get it up and running and when I start taking pics of my work I'll be sure to send you some. Thanks for taking in interest in my creative flare

Erica, if they're gonna think you're overqualified, maybe you could not tell them about all your experience. Who knows, maybe you'd at least get a minimum wage job that way. Yah, it really sucks not being able to find a job or decent training for the future. I'm looking too. Don't let it bring you down, you will find something!
As for a place to live, what about your parents' house or his parents' house or that of a good friend, if you can't stay in your appartment any more? I'm sure you won't get kicked out, though.
It's ok, feel free to vent!

My luck changed today

I used to be a shift supervisor at Rite Aide when it used to be Brooks Pharmacy and I saw a job listing for the same position so I went down there first thing this morning... told her about my past experience, handed her what she thought was a very impressive resume and she was soooooo excited. She said that they're looking for someone just like me so that they wouldn't have to train anyone. So, I think it's in the bag because she said she would call me when she has the schedule figured out. It's only part time to start but will turn to full time in about 2 months. The best part is, is that I've been looking for all of types of work but I've always missed working there and wanting to get back in, and here is my chance... PERFECT!! Not the greatest pay but it's better than always worrying and wondering 'Am I gonna get my money this week? When is my unemployment gonna run out?' Not to mention the fact that I seriously need more structure in my life and to get out of this house. I try to schedule my errands and stuff so that I at least some sort of structure but it's not the same. I started going crazy and talking to myself months ago so I can't wait. And I'm someone who LIKES to work so I'm super excited about this in all aspect.

AND... my husband asked his boss for a raise last week (he preps/paints cars) and he found out today that he's getting one!!

My husband our, friend/bus. partner and I got together last night and went over some stuff and we're planning on making our first batch of merch. by the end of the months, we officially own our own domain name and the website is being built so, early-mid Feb. we should be in business!! Pretty exciting for us.

It's so weird how all of a sudden I wake up and it's like everything did a 180 and shifted... this is the best day I've had since probably my wedding day (6 months ago to the day ).


Thank you so much Jasmin (and everyone else who read/reply to my vents) You all really helped me get through the past couple of weeks.

Yay! That's great, Erica, I'm happy for you. It sounds like everything's going to be great