Hello

Hello I have just joined the forum as I need advice.

I am 18, male, and I have aspergers syndrome.
I have worries that I might have Schizophrenia but I am not sure.

I see and hear things that make me think there are people plotting against me, particularly the railway companies, builders and groups of people who laugh a lot. There are also random people (although normally an elderly, odd looking man. Or a young black man) who follow me and want to steal my bag, probably so that they can show all my friends the poetry I have written and they will all hate me and laugh at me because it is rubbish.
I think that my friends are talking about me a-lot behind my back. I have reasons for thinking this but I realize while I write this now that those reasons could all be in my head.
I don't think I have hallucinations but how do I know if I am or not? If I do, I think I see people following me and I see evil expressions on peoples faces that makes me think they are plotting something against me. I am not worried that people are out to cause me harm or to kill me, probably because I am not a small and defenseless creature. And I am not afraid of death.
These people are out to cause me some psychological pain by going about it in a very crude and vulgar fashion.
If I think that someone is trying to 'get into my head' using clever words or whatever then I will not let then do it.
What worries me the most is that I will stop thinking these things are happening when I apply thought and logic, but then something slightly different but with many similarities to the things I have just mentioned will happen.

Does any of this make sense?
Your advise on what (if anything) is wrong with me would be greatly appreciated.

Edit:
I forgot a couple of things, the first is that I think (although I know it is absurd) that people have cameras in bathrooms, and so I never go anywhere except places I'm sure are safe from cameras.
The other thing is that I think people are always trying to spy on me through by bedroom window, and so my curtains are always closed and the light is often on while I am asleep and off when I am out so they don't know if I am in or not.

Hi,

What you're saying does indeed make sense, but I want you to know that the majority of people out there are very friendly. They are not plotting gainst you and - if anything - they don't care one bit about you or your life. In fact, some might even think that you are plotting against them - It's all very irrational though... ...What you could try doing is talking about your worries to your doctor or counsellor (or both), or to anyone else who understands what you're going through. You're very welcome to talk about thm here further too, as talking more about them will allow you to rationalise the paranoid thoughts more (and therefore see them for what they are - i.e. irrational/illogical).

I have Asperger's Sndrome too, by the way.

Kevin

Thanks for your reply, this is very kind of you.

I don't know if you understood my question though, I wanted to know if (in your opinions) I have Schizophrenia.
Sorry if I did not make this clear.

I do not have a counsellor and I really don't know if there is anything wrong at all, but sometimes I think there might be.
For this reason I have not spoken to anyone about it.