Hey. Think I posted in wrong place first...

Hey all.

I don't know where to start. Bad day. Bad few years. I'm 30!!! Still trying to get help for depression, PTSD, Social anxiety, and right now, I think Nightmares should probably be my new name.
History of sexual abuse, grew up with depressed mother, come from large family, was invisible. Trying trying trying to get to the bottom of all my problems. Long long road and not much help around. Finally on a long waiting list to see a psychologist. Have been with numerous counsellors, problem being, they can't tell me anything I don't already know. I guess I've lived (and therefore studied) depression for years now. So hopefully a psychologist is the right way to go. On Effexor. 187.5mg for few years now. Having horrific nightmares for the past year. Stops sometimes but right now, horrible. Have been very possitive and motivated about 'getting better' since beginning of last year, but motivation seems to have evapourted right now. What if it is too late for me.. Jeez.
Sorry for mopey first post. So much feelings and subjects involved, don't know if it's possible to go through everything. I guess I hope I can find something here. Thanks for listening.

Hi Coffee,

Just for a change, can you tell me what's right in your life right now? I mean, what hobbies do you have? What are your friends like? What music do you like? I think that focussing on positive things might be a good thing for you. We shouldn't completely forget about the bad things too though, of course! What happens in your nightmares? - Is there a common theme?

Kevin