gothicsilverfish wrote:Hello. I just registered today. Uhh...how do I say this? I'm not really sure what I have. Depression, certainly; I think I had PTSD when I was 15, and maybe depersonalisation disorder? I don't know. I don't really want to overanalyse things and confuse myself. The only thing I'm certain is that the things I'm feeling can't be entirely normal.
Well, I guess this means one of my reasons for joining is finding out. Also, I'd like to be around people who understand. Not that my friends aren't great at listening, but they keep expecting me to be 100% ok; bright and happy now. Either that, or they think (like my parents) that I'm not trying hard enough to "snap out of it"; like I can will everything away if I exercise frequently and motivate myself. Maybe I can; maybe I'm being lazy; but it gets tiring sometimes when I have to struggle with this myself.
I also hope that coming here will help in some way. I can't afford a therapist or even counselling sessions; but this HAS to get better somehow. It's seriously starting to affect my life.
Uhhh....think I said too much already. Sorry? n_nU
In the meantime, nice to meet you all.
Hello and welcome to the forum.


I think it can be really hard when friends and family either expect you just to be ok or think you just need to do more to "snap out of it". I've experienced the same thing from people in my life too. The fact is that things are usually more complicated than that. I think you will find more understanding and empathy here for what you are going through.
It can be a challenge to try and improve your circumstances without the support of a therapist. I would really recommend it... You may find if you go to university or school that there are some counsellors there that could help for low cost... I think it is wonderful you are taking the steps to reach out here for support. It can be difficult to work out what it going on for you, but I think being here and talking about things will gradually help you work through some stuff, even if you can't put an exact diagnosis on it.
You mentioned depression and depersonalisation disorder, those are fairly common mental health issues to have so fortunately you should be able to find a fair bit of information and ideas about how to manage them. PTSD is usually the result of a trauma which is often life-threatening or involves witnessing something of that nature and it is not so likely to resolve without proper treatment...
Anyway, I look forward to seeing you around the place. I hope you enjoy it here...