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Hi, I'm Lisbeth. I guess you could say I suffer from anxiety but I'm too embarassed to talk to anyone/go see a doctor for how I'm feeling.

Hello, so here's my first post...browsed the forum for a couple days before deciding to go ahead and join. I'm about 95% sure I have this "disorder" I have to say though that two things really bother me about it. Firstly, why does it have to be labeled a disorder instead of just a personality type? I don't think just because it's not the majority of people who think and behave this way that we are the ones with a problem...secondly I really hate the term schizoid, makes you sound like your a nutcase haha I understand where the prefix schiz is derived from, I still don't like it lol.

So, anyway when I read the Wikipedia page about SPD a couple years ago I found it a bit relieving and unnerving at the same time to read something that seemed so much to be about me. I do find though that the generic checklists that people post to be a little unreliable. I don't think anything in life is either black or white and I fall into a lot of gray areas. I think that's just because every person is different and has different life situations that will make the severity and particulars of the "disorder" vary a bit.

About me: female, late 20s..always called quiet, mysterious, loner by others. I've always felt like I cant relate to anyone to the point where I often don't feel like I belong on this earth. I hate meeting new people unless I find them interesting or similar to me in some way and I usually know this in the first 5 minutes. I have no desire though to "fit in" or be able to talk to people more..I don't like most of them anyway. My biggest hurdle is just that I become immersed in my own thoughts and feel that I live inside my own head most of the time. So it becomes hard to get things done to improve my life. I procrastinate too much and overthink everything. Ok, well that's enough about me for now. I'm not very fond of talking about myself

Hi everyone!

I'm new here. You can say that I'm suffering from a mid-life crisis. Looking around the forum, I can see that I can get the help that I need here. Looking forward to my stay here!

Hi everyone,
I am a new member. I have dissociative disorder. I have not dealt with this for several years. Having this sight to turn to is a step toward healing for me. Being able to talk with people who understand will help. Am looking forward to finding my way.

LisbethSalander wrote:Hi, I'm Lisbeth. I guess you could say I suffer from anxiety but I'm too embarassed to talk to anyone/go see a doctor for how I'm feeling.

Hello and welcome. I hope you can get up the courage to see a doctor. I hope that being on this site can give you a good start at practising to talk about your problems. Lots of people suffer from anxiety so it is nothing to be embarrassed about.

Homesick_Alien wrote:Hello, so here's my first post...

Hello Homesick_Alien and welcome. Nice to have you here. I hope you settle in ok.

CoffeeHugger wrote:Hi everyone!

I'm new here. You can say that I'm suffering from a mid-life crisis. Looking around the forum, I can see that I can get the help that I need here. Looking forward to my stay here!

Hello and welcome to you too. I'm glad you can see you will find some help here. Take care and enjoy your time here.

pennyg wrote:Hi everyone,
I am a new member. I have dissociative disorder. I have not dealt with this for several years. Having this sight to turn to is a step toward healing for me. Being able to talk with people who understand will help. Am looking forward to finding my way.

Hello pennyg and welcome. I have a dissociative disorder too. I hope it is helpful for you to be here and to get some support from people here who understand what it is like to have a dissociative disorder.

Hello - I am Albie - 36-year-old wife and mother. I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago. However, lately I have begun to question that and really wonder what in the world is happening to me when I get so angry. I am hoping I can relate to some of the stories on here and understand how folks just get through every single day. Because right now, I feel completely and utterly alone.

-Albie

Just_ALB wrote:Hello - I am Albie - 36-year-old wife and mother. I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago. However, lately I have begun to question that and really wonder what in the world is happening to me when I get so angry. I am hoping I can relate to some of the stories on here and understand how folks just get through every single day. Because right now, I feel completely and utterly alone.

-Albie

Hello Albie and welcome to the site.

I'm sorry to hear about the issues you are going through. I'm sure if you look around here for a bit, you will be able to find some people who relate to you. It sucks when you feel alone with stuff. But now you have us here to help you through it. I hope you find the forum supportive and welcoming...

Hello...I'm a 18 year old girl, and I decided to join because I... have no one to talk to.I can't feel anything for a long time.Every smile I have on my face seems wrong.I can't feel happiness,sadness , fear... pain.I started to cut myself to feel something, anything, but whatever I do, it doesn't seem to work.My friends and family are the best people in the world.I know have no reason to feel like this, but I can't help myself, and I don't want to burden and disappoint them with my meaningless problems.My only reason to live right now is that my parents and friends somehow care for me, and they would be devastated if I commited suicide.However, I'm tired of the mask I have to wear when I'm not alone.I'm not that girl who smiles and laughs at everything and jokes around and I'm just...tired of it.I don't know who I am anymore.I have a name and a face, but they are not mine.It feels like I'm living someone else's life.
I think I'll at least have someone to talk to in this forum, someone who can understand me... so...That's pretty much it I guess...

Hi, I'm new.

Was diagnosed with bpd four years ago, and an eating disorder. Now in my mid-twenties, and have just started DBT-therapy. Despite having made myself unemployed last autumn, I feel hopeful about the future,while still struggling with control issues, suicidal thoughts, and paranoia.

Look forward to sharing any insights that might be helpful to anyone else struggling with bpd and/or similar problems. And, of course, learning from all you others. It's impossible to wade through hell alone!

Lots of love.

Ethyst wrote:Hello...I'm a 18 year old girl, and I decided to join because I... have no one to talk to.I can't feel anything for a long time.Every smile I have on my face seems wrong.I can't feel happiness,sadness , fear... pain.I started to cut myself to feel something, anything, but whatever I do, it doesn't seem to work.My friends and family are the best people in the world.I know have no reason to feel like this, but I can't help myself, and I don't want to burden and disappoint them with my meaningless problems.My only reason to live right now is that my parents and friends somehow care for me, and they would be devastated if I commited suicide.However, I'm tired of the mask I have to wear when I'm not alone.I'm not that girl who smiles and laughs at everything and jokes around and I'm just...tired of it.I don't know who I am anymore.I have a name and a face, but they are not mine.It feels like I'm living someone else's life.
I think I'll at least have someone to talk to in this forum, someone who can understand me... so...That's pretty much it I guess...

Hello and welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear that you feel like you have no-one to talk to and that you feel like you are hiding your pain behind a happy mask. I feel like that sometimes too. Your problems aren't meaningless, they are important because they are effecting you and making you feel bad. I think it is good that you have started to reach out for some support here. I'm sure that will help you get some confidence to feel you can confide in someone in your real life about your problems when you eventually feel ready to talk to someone about it. I hope you find the forum helpful and supportive. It can be good to be around people here that feel similarly to how you do, it makes you feel less isolated. Here is a good place to start to connect with people about how you truly feel.

irene adler wrote:Hi, I'm new.

Was diagnosed with bpd four years ago, and an eating disorder. Now in my mid-twenties, and have just started DBT-therapy. Despite having made myself unemployed last autumn, I feel hopeful about the future,while still struggling with control issues, suicidal thoughts, and paranoia.

Look forward to sharing any insights that might be helpful to anyone else struggling with bpd and/or similar problems. And, of course, learning from all you others. It's impossible to wade through hell alone!

Lots of love.

Hello and welcome to the forum. It's good to hear you are doing therapy to help you with your problems. That will be helpful. I don't know too much about BPD but I know the BPD forum here is quite active and so I think you will find a lot of people you relate to here. I hope you find the forum helpful and supportive.