by sn4ilgirl » Mon Oct 02, 2023 12:46 pm
hi there, my name is S, and I am a 21 year old biojogy major. I have been diagnosed with ocd, adhd, social anxiety, and depression. Lately I have been struggling insanely hard. I've almost completed my dbt course and I use the skills I learned every day or nearly every day, and most days I'm fine, but yesterday I had a huge mental breakdown. Like, screaming, crying, freaking out all day, even while using the coping skills.
I don't know if this is part of the process. I don't know. I am trying to get over a breakup that is killing me so badly. I've lost my only friend and my lover. I can't go to my parents anymore, they don't want to hear it and they have problems of their own. I don't have any friends to go to and i dont know if i am mentally healthy enough to maintain a meaningful friendship right now anyways. School is eating me alive and all I want is something healthy to eat but somehow, every time someone goes to the store, they forget about the things I ask for. I am doing everything I can but I am falling apart and I don't know how to put myself back together or if I even can. I don't know if the pieces fit back together anymore and I'm scared about that.
I am trying so hard, so hard. But I'm still called lazy.
i know this all wasn't necessary to add to an introduction but I need to get this out. I can't hold it in anymore. im typing this at school because im here all the time, i never get a break, i even work hard on the weekend.