Hello Everyone

Hi. My intense analysis of my own habits, behaviors, emotions, and lots of contemplation into the why's, has led me to become more aware of deep-seated fears that I had burried within me. Now I'm having an identity crisis worse than ever. Looking back on my behavior whether online or in real life in just a year, and I can see how much I've changed. I have struggled my whole life to be consistent in the way I behave outwards so to speak, but also how I feel internally. I feel that my internal state is changing how I behave externally. But I believe I have been consistent enough that it makes perfect sense for me to question if I am changing into something unrecognisable, and if I am unknowingly tricking myself to change my very nature.. to then realising I don't know my true nature and identity anymore.. to then realise I never did.. to then start questioning if not knowing my true nature is something recent due to confusing myself about who I am? I also worry if this identity crisis is just my Saturn return and nothing more, because then I will feel like I'm losing myself literally. I no longer feel any meaning, and I've also given up on trying to have some spiritual role to serve other people. I need to have stability in my identity but I am terrified that I may have made it more confusing for myself, because if so, then the follow up thought will be if this means I don't have any identity confusion, and then I will go into panic mode. Because I truly don't know who I am. :confused:I don't want to suffer. I want to know who I am. I want an identity. I want to know why I am like this.

Hello, I am new to this forum. Interested in sharing mental health experiences with others familiar with the same. I am currently going through a persistent mild depression and have trouble getting out of bed in the morning, participating in activities, etc.

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