me and my schizophrenia want to say Hi :)

Hello, have been struggling depression from couple of years and since last year have schizophrenia. 2 times have been hospitalized in psychiatric hospital after very hard psychosis. I go for psychotherapy regularly and take anti psychotic and anti depression medicaments.
My life is ok - wife, son, work. Slow but stable progress. The only thing I have problem with is a fear that psychosis will come to me again.

MY PSYCHOSIS was about religious motives (fight for my soul between God and Devil) and I felt that I am going to suffer till infinity. Horrible experience but afterwards it was like catharsis, divinization, Positive disintegration, dark night of the soul, spiritual crisis. Soon I am going to speak about this experience with a priest.

Hello and welcome!

From how you write it sounds like the psychosis is past tense now – I am happy to hear that. That fear might be with you for a long time I'm afraid – PTSD therapy might help, perhaps? It's like when you have a car accident and they you're scared to drive for a long time. But I hope your fear will prove unfounded and all will be well.

Greetings and I hope PF helps you!

Dear Oliveira - thank you for your message.
I hope my psychosis is the past tense now cause I take medicaments but sometimes especially in a stressful situation i feel something like a fear, panic especially at work which in my opinion is very similar to the psychosis. I work in a reception desk of a big hotel so i have many contact with people and stressful situations. I don't feel fear when I am off the work like at home or with family.