Hello, everyone.

It seems people are introducing themselves here so I guess I'll join in?

I go by the name Kit and I'm 30 years old. I've been diagnosed with a lot of stuff, I think. Bipolar Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and more recently C-PTSD and BPD.
I also have some kind of psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, lots of fun stuff, heh) but since I don't respond well to anti-psychotics it's not brought up a lot.

I've been abused, sexually, emotionally, and physically as a child and later on in life. Nowadays I've been almost unable to leave my room completely, even for psychiatric and therapist appointments.
I feel like they won't help much anyway.
I feel like they abandoned me as a child to my abusers and now they want me to try and fight this and it's kind of hypocritical of them. I don't know.

I'm here to read mostly, probably. But I don't have many people to talk to and it would be nice to talk to like-minded people about my problems and their problems. To be in a place where I don't have to worry about scaring people away because of my diagnoses.

Thanks for reading.

Hi and welcome to the forums kit
Feel free to read and find your way around a bit
No judgement or timer here dont worry

Hello and welcome, Kit!

I've recently undergone EMDR treatment for my PTSD and it's a miracle – honestly I didn't believe it would work at all but it does. Perhaps you could ask your med team about it? It helped me distance myself from the abuse I underwent in my life, it changed from something that terrorised me for years or decades into a feeling that it's a story I know, as if I read about it, but it no longer affects me emotionally.

I hope things get better for you soon!

Oliveira wrote:Hello and welcome, Kit!

I've recently undergone EMDR treatment for my PTSD and it's a miracle – honestly I didn't believe it would work at all but it does. Perhaps you could ask your med team about it? It helped me distance myself from the abuse I underwent in my life, it changed from something that terrorised me for years or decades into a feeling that it's a story I know, as if I read about it, but it no longer affects me emotionally.

I hope things get better for you soon!

I underwent some EMDR and it was pretty amazing! I remembered a lot of stuff and I felt like it was really helping.

Sadly, the therapist I was with kept trying to re-diagnose me, no matter how many times I told her to stop. She would say things like because I did not exhibit a specific symptom, I was not sick (like not getting into the red in my bank account meant I didn't have mania and therefore didn't have Bipolar Disorder, not that I had taken years to try and better control my finances).

She'd also sit me down and interrogate me about my PTSD symptoms, as if I were lying. "Are you sure? The symptom is like this. Are you absolutely sure? Really, really sure?"

Eventually the costs outweighed the benefits, and I couldn't find another therapist that did EMDR with my insurance.

Thank you for the welcomes and well wishes!

Hey there!!

I'm new here as well and your post resonated with me so I hope you don't mind me replying to you.

I'm the same age as yourself and have also been diagnosed with bipolar, ADD, PTSD, and anxiety. It's a tough road to go down and it's been lonely along the way. I've also had severe emotional, physical, and sexual abuse as a child along with a few other events that occured during that time and afterwards as a result. It's hard.. I know it is.

But the good thing is you're reaching out for support and that's important. You are taking a few steps forward and that's better than walking backwards or even standing still. Don't give up ok? Things do get better. I know hearing those words tends to make you feel like people don't know what they're talking about and they feel like empty platitudes, but from experience I know they do get better. You just have to find the right things that work for YOU.

You'll get there.. I hope you find the support you are looking for here and if you ever want to talk or vent, my inbox is open (after our 5 posts I mean lol)

Take care and good luck!