Not sure if I've posted here yet

Hi.

I'm Rich, from the username richrock. I've struggled with depression and quite probably a large number of personality issues over the years, and it's been a fight for me to both accept that, get help and also get an official diagnosis for some part.

I'm quite open online, but in reality I'm a super shy quiet guy (unless I'm in a mania mode), hate being in groups of people, don't socialise well, and struggle with extremely poor self-esteem. Did I mention depressed too? Don't have any friends, don't go out, all the people I come into contact with are my wife and my work colleagues. Occasionally my parents too, if I muster up the strength and willpower to do something about visiting them...

I'm currently on meds, and on a seemingly never-ending waiting list for counselling, and kind of hoping I will get psychiatric treatment too - from what I understand, counselling is like 6 sessions, psychiatric is up to a year here. But I'm not sure and I'm rambling now so I'll shut up.