Just looking to get better

Hello everyone. My name is Reese and I have manic depression. I decided to log on this forum to try to get answers, to relate, and to vent if needed. Today I am having an episode and I don't have anyone to talk to. I hope to just better understand how to cope because depression is literally painful not just mentally for me but also physically and I don't know what to do. I try to talk to the doctors but its hard for me to articulate at the time what's really going on.I end up feeling each time like they just look at me like its nothing and im just a little down. I feel this is ruining my life badly. I just want to scream help. Someone please let me know im not alone and its just not me. Signing whyme_reese.

Hi, and Welcome whyme_reese,
Your definitely not alone