Hello

I've never been involved in any sort of forum like this and have to admit that saying this type of thing is "outside my comfort zone" would be a drastic understatement. I have struggled with psychological problems for as long as I can remember...depression, anxiety, paranoia, agoraphobia, what I have been told are schizoid personality traits (aka my frequent outright despise for interaction with the outside world). Although I have been in and out of various treatments for the last 20ish years, I have found that there remains a lacking somewhere that I am currently attempting to fulfill although I cannot specifically iterate what that lacking entails. As part as an overall "soul searching endeavor" I am hoping that these pages will provide some form of understanding of why I am the way I am and what I need to do in order to come to terms with myself and the world around me. As an acquaintance of my past was fond of saying...the mind is like a parachute, it only works when open.