Hello

Hi all. I found this forum a couple of days ago and would like to post about the reasons behind my depression over the past few years. I'll post here as I don't know where to post it.

I figured out a couple of days ago that my depression has been caused by myself having an obsession with emotions. I believe that I could have a form of OCD as ever since the start of my relationship I have been obsessed over wanting to feel an emotional connection to my girlfriend by crying to express love as I find love in itself an impossible thing to feel. Also I have just discovered that I have always had a problem with not missing people. No matter how much time I spend with my girlfriend or family (who I don't live near to) I never miss their company and I have found this really strange.

I have taken the first step and booked an appointment to see my doc to see what he thinks as I need to sort things out. I didn't have a very good childhood so I wont be surprised if my problems are related to that. I would like to know what you guys think about it all. Not being able to feel love (which I interpret as emotion) is difficult for me to do.

Dominic.

Hello and welcome to the forum.

There is a complete list of forums here that you might like to gradually have a browse through and see who you can relate to: forum.html

It's not good to hear that you haven't had a good childhood. Often that can effect our development of problematic mental health issues in the future. You might be interested to read up a bit on attachment theory and styles because it sounds like this may be an element of connection with others that is giving you some problems.

It's fantastic to hear that you have booked in to see your doc. That's a great step to take. Have you had your appointment yet or soon? I hope it goes well and you can get some of the help you need.

Hello Salted Lipstick and thank you for the welcome and reply.

Last night while my girlfriend was asleep next to me (I was watching a TV show in the dark) and while watching it I thought about me and her together and the future. Certain scenes in the show moved me and I felt the emotions that I wanted to feel and it was great. All I have to do is learn to stop obsessing over emotions and I'm gonna try and do that on my own. Today I am not feeling sad at all, I am feeling very content. I am very greatful to my maker that he allowed us both to meet each other.

just wanna stop by and welcome you! hope you enjoy your stay here