Been off this site for some time, now. Do have some condition upgates.
Have discovered that I don't have bats in the bellfree, but I do have some squirrels in the attic! They chased away the bats, ate their bat babies, and chewed lots of wiring loose.
Officially diagnosed, finally; PTSD, Chronic Depression, Reactive Attachment Disorder
Basicly, "I love Mankind, it's people I can't stand", or "Trust No One", or "Should I Kill all authority figures and stupid people, or Blow my own brains out? Wait, they won't let me do the latter! "