My name is Vacuous.

My mental health issues have always been behavioral problems. Since I was a kid, I've been diagnosed with ADHD and conduct disorder, and I received a substance abuse disorder diagnosis in high school, and just recently I've been dubbed a narcissist. This is why I've come to join the forums.

I initially took the idea of me being narcissistic as an insult, but after reading more about it, I realized that I fit most of the qualifications. Lack of empathy, superficial charm, pathological lying, I pass every mark with flying colors. I'm having trouble accepting this as an issue. I've always seen myself as one of the few logical, rational people with common sense and the ability to look at things from a logical perspective left in this world. When I hear about tragedies happening to people I don't know and everyone around me freaks out, I wonder if they care about the millions of other people who died on the same day. It's literally impossible to have empathy for everybody, and to me, I don't see a point in having empathy for anybody. It's just such a waste of time.

Maybe there's something I'm missing. I see a lot of things, like school, as pointless. I do have dreams of being respected, of having money and power. I've thought about starting a bank, but I don't have the capital. I'm starting to ramble, so I'll end this post by saying you'll probably find me in the personality disorder sub-forum.