How does he know who I am?

I've been within in my friendship circle for about four years, not close to any of them particularly. I go out here and there with them so I'm not lonely at home or throwing up with bulimia or impulsive spending. I like to try and bring some of them closer to me before leaving the area for sustained periods of time, often creating friction before removing myself entirely from the situation. One of these members split up with another of the circle, I carefully brought him round to my attention slowly reeling him in whilst completely disregarding the previous female he was with who currently has no idea. She thinks we are good friends. They have been split up for a few months after being together for quite some time. After sleeping with him, he made a low key comment that someone recently stopped speaking to him because hes a psychopath. A part of me knew it anyway deep down so brushed it off trying to keep my own identity safe. Last night one week later he looks at me straight into my eyes and says: "do you know what your problem is? you never admit what you are. You are what I am. Why don't you just say it" and then proceeded to call me a sociopath.

I instantly freaked out. Now I feel like I don't want him around me anymore. It's no fun. It's also worrying me in a ###$ up way how things will go, because the buzz it gave me that he knew was so over the top I realised it would end in a contest of who can ###$ who over the most.

I've never had someone call me out like that before, except for two other occassions where I was living with people who deemed me to be a psychopath, which I responded to with intense kindness to blanket up the fact I could never possibly be such a thing. Before he said this to my face, although I deep down have always known, I've been in huge denial about it. I'm not someone who comes onto forums boasting or bragging about how I've ###$ people over, about how I have gained my way through life through manipulating systems or lying to be high up in my sector, because deep down a part of me never attributed my issues to psychopathy. I am such a good liar that I would lie to my psychologist, family and everyone around me to make them believe I'm normal or blame other things for my actions. It makes me uncomfortable to take any kind of responsibility for wrongdoings.

I look people in the eyes when I speak, I analyse their entire life and I morph to be the individual who they want and need in order to get what I want- a higher pay rise, better social status, money, sex, I like being the centre of attention when I am doing this and I like doing it in a way which makes people wonder how I am doing everything so cunningly whilst playing it completely cool. I have had to force myself to learn to care about what others think to gain friends, but I am used to being alone and friends are a relatively new concept. I've cheated, but only out of revenge. I've used people before for company and insulted them for years to make myself feel better and for fun. I've driven people absolutely insane with games to make them feel like they're the crazy one. Until my last relationship was with someone worse than I was and in the end, he outdid me. I had a wicked childhood, things got ###$ up in my teens. I have always been into disturbing videos, individuals and I feed off of other people's misery.

Does this sound like pathic behaviour to you? As this is the first time I'm admitting it to myself, upon being called out so badly.

So what do I do now- carry on with someone who's as pathic as me or deny it, act normal and let him think he's winning until the time is right? Should I even carry on what me and him have?

my ex-girlfriend had schizophrenia but she was also a psychopath. it took me many years to actually recognise the latter, as i always put her behaviour towards me down to the former. i recognise much of that in what you've written. it does seem to me that you've little comprehension of how much pain people like you cause others. your only concern seems to be getting the better of people. and it's only when they end up getting the better of you that you step back a bit and reflect at all on your own behaviour. candidly, i think your life is shallow and meaningless. without any worthwhile relationships, the only person you'll ever be appreciated by is yourself, and i think you're beginning to realise how unfulfilling that is working out for you. so, perhaps you should stop kidding yourself by thinking that you don't need other people in your life. you obviously do. if you manage to reach that conclusion, you can't help but realise that you're only ever going to have people in your life that genuinely care about you if you also genuinely care about them. as such, the question you ought to be asking yourself is how can you change the way you behave in order to become someone that other people want in their lives, rather than just thinking that the only person that matters is you.

I wouldn't worry about it. You could actually use this to your advantage. Maybe he's signalling to you that he wants someone he can relate to around.