Why do I enjoy scaring people?

I've been doing this for a while now but don't understand why I do it, I think I am anti social but won't actually hurt people as that's not me, but I do what I can to scare them, It's not even pranks, sometimes it can be pretty scary $#%^ that I get away with, for example I stare people down in the street.

And also I keep on playing mind games with my foster parents that I'm a psychopath, It's beyond trolling really, sometimes it can be like I'm trying to overpower them, I put bad things all over my facebook to make people think that I'm actually a psychopath but I'm not.

I used to have a fascination with "secret societies" and liked to give people the hint that I knew where they lived by finding out their home address I like to play mind games that "we" know where they live and "we" are watching them etc. I sometimes dress up in some formal clothes with blacked out shades and start following people, if it were actually legal I would threaten to kill them there and then but I don't do it, but I like to give them a hint that "we" know where they live, I do know how to find people but I never doing anything illegal, I just love to scare the $#%^ out of people, even to the point where they think they are going to be killed but they don't get killed, I'd never kill.

What is this about? I think it may be an ego thing as I could be a narcissist or it could be something anti social, due to my past I've become anti social, I have been treated badly in the past, it's like when the bullied becomes the bully, but instead I don't hurt them I just scare them and psychologically overpower them, it's manipulative, i think it could be to do with narcissism.

Now you've got me wondering. My first reaction to reading your post was amusement, because I wouldn't put those kind of things past myself. Actually, I've done them. One time a driver pissed me off by deliberately not letting me in at my turn, and I had time to kill so I began to follow him. I wasn't going to do anything, I just wanted to see what would happen. Anyway, once he realized he freaked, he zipped across all these lanes and turned into an area that I wasn't able to get to as quickly so I lost him. And I felt greatly satisfied. I also had some girls make fun of me in school, so I started following them until they got really disturbed and went to the principal. Again, satisfied somehow.

But when I think about it further, it's actually pretty sadistic, isn't it? Because I know how it feels to be scared, when you know you are being pursued, when you are convinced that someone intends to cause you harm. It's a horrible feeling. I think you may be on to something about being treated badly in the past. I know for myself when I am treated badly, I feel powerless and not taken seriously. When people are scared, it reminds me that I can have power over someone, enough power to invoke the emotion of fear in them, enough for them to fear for their safety. I guess, for that moment in time, I'm someone you just don't ###$ with. At least to them.

Eschenbach wrote:I have been treated badly in the past, it's like when the bullied becomes the bully, but instead I don't hurt them I just scare them and psychologically overpower them

I'd call that adult bullying still. How's your self esteem?