
From your previous post, the one in which you wondered if CIA is hiring as well this one in which you mention living in UK.. it seems to me that you don't really want to be helped, but rather rant. That's fine too.
BUT if people get the impression you don't want their help, they will not reply. Sometimes, when people rant [or at least when i do it] they don't want a reply. they just want to take it out of their chests. Furthermore, not everyone has the right input to reply when they read a thread...
i hope you find the support and help you really need.
PS: ever tried out praying or meditating? praying could help, unless you're an atheist.
