Not wanting to take the medication

Hi everyone
I'm new here, and was recently diagnosed at bipolar. I'm currently on Lamictal.

The thing is, I know I should take it or I'll go back to being depressed eventually, but I really don't like taking it when I'm "manic". I feel so good when I'm like that. I'm really talkative, outgoing, and hyper. I make tons of friends when I'm like that, and I get so much done. It feels like nothing can ever bring me down. Everyone would always say how fun I was to be around. They just never saw it get out of hand though. Not many people did, except me and my mom. I can't stand the depression side to it though. It's horrible, so I know I need to keep taking the medication.
I don't really know what I'm trying to say. I guess I just don't want to end up.. boring.

I'm really tempted to quit Lamictal though, even though I know it's just doing it's job.

Has anyone else ever felt like this?

Wow, I pretty much had to double check and make sure you had written this and not me!! In other words, I can completely and totally relate! I love the highs, HATE the lows. Sometimes the highs do become too much though. But they can also be fun, and I can get SO much done. I can clean up my room and things so quickly, and I have much more energy. It's great! My plan is to take medication to keep me okay for the next while, finishing up school and all, and then i may try to go off, but I dont know yet.

Yeah, I have TONS of energy. I could probably exercise for hours and not even get a little bit tired. Haha, but I usually end up either making an extremely bad decision or embarrassing myself somehow, so there's some of the bad things about it.

The psychiatrist said he was hoping that I wouldn't have to take this for the rest of my life, and that maybe this would just help things get back on track or something.

How long have you been taking.. whatever you're taking? Is it helping?

I've been on lithium and zoloft since September and am trying other things too.

I can completely and TOTALLY relate to you here though! I was just telling my sister about how I excercize for like 3 hours sometimes and I could still go on for longer. I also someitmes talk too much and do things to embarass myself though.

~element

Oh, have you ever taken Lamictal?

I haven't been on it too long, but I think it's making me more annoyed or something. I've snapped at everyone for the stupidest things today. I'm pretty sure I wasn't THIS annoyed at everyone/everything before I started taking it.

I haven't taken that one. If you're feeling like that you should call your doctor though.

I'm going to see them tomorrow.

I'm starting to get depressed again. I hate how this all just happens for no reason what so ever, and I look like an idiot crying for no reason. I guess I'll have to have another medication added since this one doesn't seem to be helping with that. Great.

I'm sorry you're depressed, and don't worry about the crying. I mean, i know it isn't pleasant, but don't fret over what other people are thinking. It used to bother me because I thought that people must really not be able to understand me, but they don't have to. I don't even understand it.

~element

Thanks. I still don't understand most of this. I guess it's still taking me a while to accept all this.

Oh, and I saw the doctor today. I think I'm just getting more annoyed because when I'm sad like this all I want to do is be left alone and not have to talk, so I just get annoyed at everyone if they don't let that happen. She said I should give the new thing a few more days to kick in. I really hope this works..

Yeah, meds usually take a while to kick in. I didn't think about that. I'm just starting abilify, but it will be a while until I know if it helps. Meanwhile, I'm still taking my other medications though. I'm actually on a LOT of things right now! But not for long. Just until we can get it adjusted.