Taking Depakote for 6 days feels like a set back

I have been taking it, a whopping dose I think, but NO more. I have had an incredible list of side effects that are not subsiding. I have borderline personality disorder, not bipolar. I know they do treat Borderline with mood stabilizers, but this is the 4th one I have tried and I say enough is enough. Lithium was the worst!!!

I am not an easy person to medicate, but I have felt...

1-More depressed
2-No energy whatsoever, unable to get up in the morning for appointments or church.
3-Like a zombie and that I have had a grossly huge amount of alcohol, which includes dizziness and staggering
4-Disgusted
5-No desire to do anything or motivation to do what I NEED to do.
6-Vivid dreams, some of them bad, especially the last 2 nights
7-Weight gain
8-Strange food cravings
9-Waking up in the mornings saturated from sweating
10-Headaches
11-More irritable than ever

I talked with a pharmacist and she agreed that it is obviously not agreeing with me. You cannot get in touch with anyone at the mental health center of course and they are probably going to get mad at me, but this is ridiculous.

I don't think my mood swings are that bad, my dad is out of town for a week!!, and I feel better already. He stresses me out big time.

I think I will feel much better off of it. I think I am going to refuse to take any more mood stabilizers, they obviously do not agree with me.

Sorry, had to rant.

KK

KK wrote:I have been taking it, a whopping dose I think, but NO more. I have had an incredible list of side effects that are not subsiding. I have borderline personality disorder, not bipolar. I know they do treat Borderline with mood stabilizers, but this is the 4th one I have tried and I say enough is enough. Lithium was the worst!!!

I am not an easy person to medicate, but I have felt...

1-More depressed
2-No energy whatsoever, unable to get up in the morning for appointments or church.
3-Like a zombie and that I have had a grossly huge amount of alcohol, which includes dizziness and staggering
4-Disgusted
5-No desire to do anything or motivation to do what I NEED to do.
6-Vivid dreams, some of them bad, especially the last 2 nights
7-Weight gain
8-Strange food cravings
9-Waking up in the mornings saturated from sweating
10-Headaches
11-More irritable than ever

I talked with a pharmacist and she agreed that it is obviously not agreeing with me. You cannot get in touch with anyone at the mental health center of course and they are probably going to get mad at me, but this is ridiculous.

I don't think my mood swings are that bad, my dad is out of town for a week!!, and I feel better already. He stresses me out big time.

I think I will feel much better off of it. I think I am going to refuse to take any more mood stabilizers, they obviously do not agree with me.

Sorry, had to rant.

KK

KK,
You know you can rant rant rant rant all you want here. I have manage to avoid Depakote, so I use Seroquel. A constant low dose until bedtime where the dose is tripled. You have probably tried seroquel look it up, it is antipsych drug but not near the others, I can complete function and drive.
Listen hun, they will keep wanting you to take a med. I was put on neurontin, Never ever ever take that drug. That man was nuts to give me that. Now some people are fine, I am not.

BUT you know and I know that with that dx is hard to stablize.
And it think this is jmho, You can take all kinds of meds for BPD.
But therapy/group and using cognitive skills is big picture. drag, I know.
And you slowly get better working on your issues, and it sucks because it is hard friggin work, no seems to understand or care,
And you working your butt off, and it is all for you. And if you were able to get away from your father, half of your issues would be gone gone gone!!!

I wish I could bestow these things to you.
Keep kickin, Nothing lasts forever.

Red,

Yes, I have been on Neurontin for six months before. It caused me to have a LOT of fluid retention to the point where I had to have fluid drawn off my knee with a needle and take a fluid pill that wiped me out for 2 weeks. I was on it for six months, but no other ill effects and also no good effects.

The doc in the hospital last told me that the company was sued for millions of dollars for problems it caused. What did it do to you?

No I have not been on seroquel yet. I am just on Cymbalta now. I am now so sleepy since this afternoon, I can hardly write this or stay awake. I hope after NOT taking the Depakote tomorrow that I will feel better. I need to go see my grandaughter cheerleading tomorrow!!

Yeah, I requested today that I get a different social worker. I do not plan to go back to her group again. She just is negative and drags me down. She may be factual and I am sure she helps some people, but I found her to be abrasive and rude. Especially on the phone. I do have the right to get another social worker, especially since they require you to go.

I know you are right, and now I am feeling even more of an urgency to get out on my own. This may sound terrible, but if anything happened to my mom and I was left here alone with him....I hate to think of that scenario! I have one good job I am waiting to hear from and 2 others that would be just temporary. The good one is for an insurance company and I would have to commute for about an hour, but it would be worth it.

I could afford to stay out of town and that would be a plus.

So tell me what is happening with you lately. If I am repeating myself I am sorry, I am just so zoned out.

Hugs!

karen51

I was prescribed seroquel once, I was afraid of it so I just took 1/2 the pill, and it knocked me out for 24 hrs. I was asleep all that time, just got up once to eat a piece of bread.

I guess Seroquel works if you need it, and makes folks sleep if you dont. As Antipsych meds go, It has been my saving grace. Besides all the hard work I do so I can enjoy blue skies and green grass and flowers.

Neurontin made me a walking zombie. my s/o family all went to dinner, I could hear the conversation but I could not open my eyes. My s/o kept poking me in the leg. I told him to leave me alone that I was thinking, Next thing I know I am face down in my taco's!!! My son looked so sad and worried. I quit taking it.

Wow, red that was bad. At least I didn't fall face first in my dinner! LOL. We have to laugh right? Last night I did not take the Depakote, and so far I feel better, slept better, etc. We shall see as the day goes on. I see the "nurse" which I think is funny, on the 22th.

I am not saying I know everything about every med but I need to see the doc. I guess she can get me in to see her. I know I will be resistant to trying any new drugs soon. Someone mentioned abilify. I am glad the Seroquel works for you, I have seen some people in the psych unit pretty zombied out on that.

Which would probably be what it would do to me. Neurontin did not seem to have any psych effects whatsoever on me. Everyone reacts differently to meds.

Speaking of your son, I know my family is discouraged that I am in the mess I am in. I still cannot get a job!! What I cannot figure out is why my youngest son is still so angry with me, and has been for two years. The last time I saw him last week, he hardly spoke to me, except to say something rude. I have talked to him, but to no avail. I don't think there is anything I can do to sway him, but it sure hurts like hell. I know he has problems and issues himself. I plan on going to see my grandaughter tonight do her cheerleading at the Pee Wee football...so cute!! I kind of hope he is not there. That is sad isn't it?

Wish me luck...love,

KK

Update on the Depakote, today was my first day off of it and last night I slept better and have not felt one of the side effects. I say pooey on that drug. I never felt like going to get my blood level drawn Monday, but since I noticed she ordered other labs that I would like to know how they are, I am going to have the labs drawn tomorrow.

I called to change my social worker and guess who called me back? She did!!! I do not want to talk to her, because I am guessing she is calling to ask me why I want to change...I don't need anymore of her remarks ever again!!

Anyways, wish me luck. Love you all.

KK