Eleva / Zoloft

I'm in my second week of group therapy, there is this person there and I swear she has Bipolar because their the same as my ex. They are all older and friendly, so its good. I'm doing the stress class.

Next week when I get my next prescription I am going to switch to Zoloft Zoloft as in not Eleva. I'm also thinking of asking my doctor about whether I can change the time I take it, from morning until night time because its wears off at night for me and I'm really agitated as I'm trying to get to sleep but I'll see how I go until next Tuesday.

I had another fear attack thing last night and my vision started getting sharper and more alert and I was thinking that I could see things out of the corner of my eye. So I am like before but not having hallucinations along with it.


Thank you Radames and Jasmin!

I think it's great that you're having group therapy Maybe those fear attacks will go away after a while, all you can do is tell your doc about them.

That is great that you are tracking what is going on with you, TigerRose. That way you can be more able to see which medication and/or treatment is right for you as you have found with Zoloft vs Eleva. You maybe right about the woman with bipolar at your group therapy....perhaps this is some mental sharpness you have gotten from the healing you have been receiving. Good for you!

I can't afford to get Zoloft this month, I'll have to get Eleva, so maybe next month. The thing is I kind of get this weird feeling that if I switch between Eleva and Zoloft, my body will freak out. I know its suppose to be the same but a lot of things (not meds) claim to be the same but their not and I'm kind of scared to risk that.

The group therapy is going ok, not good as such but ok, just ok, nothing too exciting or interesting. Mainly I've noticed that if I want help, I'm going to have to go through the same $#%^ and same speeches over and over again. About things like how to handle yourself, how to sit and meditate as I'm having a freak out, acceptance and then getting help. I feel like I'm a pathetic little child sitting back in the school class room because I wasn't taught these things and its making me feel like the biggest idiot, I am the youngest one there by far, 20-40 years.

I've had no more side effects.

I see improvements like I'm actually thinking of doing a Tafe course, thinking of something I can take up and being able to understand how I feel but theres something thats deep within me, thats just never going to want to be helped.

Someone could give me illegal drugs now and I'd just throw them back at them. I wasted so long, I could of done so many things and got so many things. I could of never met my 2 exes and my world would have been a better place. I still freak out every time I go into the city because I feel like someone going to comment behind my back "slut or something" but nobody has for ages. Its like I'm a completely different person on the outside but I feel guilty and like I've wasted time on drugs and could of had so much and could of been without a few people inside but I'm here and I'm ok but I have lost years off my life and I'm only 22.

My problem is I expect too much from people, I want them to like what I like, to have no friends like me, hence they can hang around me all the time until I can't breathe and then freak out and get away and he's left thinking what the hell. I want to talk about the world, how annoying people are, why people are like they are but for most people, that takes too much effect and they couldn't be bothered. Its the same with girls though, if there not into what I'm into then forget it.

I feel so isolated from people my age, from guys any age, from everyone really but once I've with someone, you know. I'm myself and to me thats a relief but to others 'sometimes' I sense that they are uncomfortable like I'm too bossy or something.

Like I go from being a quiet, shy, little thing to an arrogant, twofaced, slut really. I haven't been like that for a while and maybe drugs were to blame but it felt more a part of me than that.


I wrote this little gay poem on my myspace a little while ago and I believe it earns a place here.



Sex and drugs suppress the pain
Only soon to resurface again
Destined to end up alone
I still have music so ###$ you world!



Thats my life in a poem really.

You're not pathetic fro trying to get help. What does it matter that you're younger than those people? You should do any course you like. Don't think about the past that much, it's over, but I guess we need to grieve for what we could have had sometimes.

I managed to get Zoloft, which is weird because I thought I'd have to pay the full price for the brand name but I didn't I got it at the price I paid for Eleva.

I was actually talking to the Bipolar lady today at therapy out while she was having a cig and was talking about my ex and how he had Bipolar and I don't know how it came about but I added her and how I thought she had it and she said she did mildly. I was so amused that I spotted that in her but then I went into my ex and she found a lot of herself in him. I just thought it was interesting that I could pick it but I guess living with it for 2 years or so has given me insight into it.

Todays session was good.

I'll be started Zoloft Zoloft on Thursday and I'll see if theres any differences

Good luck with the Zoloft Zoloft I bet she was impressed that you were able to tell she was mildly bipolar. Maybe you can help eachother out.

The same my ass, Zoloft is stronger compared to Eleva, its like buying something thats a supermarket brand and then buying the a similar thing in a brand name, like chips for example say coles vs smiths.

Zoloft feels stronger, I had the same side effects that I got when I first started, which were loose stools ewwwwww and a bad headache for just a short period of time but thats all. Its also making me a little agro but not too bad.

So yeah like I said the same my ass!

I hope you're feeling ok now, Tiger.