Anxious58 wrote:don't you see all of the horrific things people do to each other and the environment for money?
Yes, I see that, but the only way we can hope to change that as a society is to make sure we treat our own interactions with money amicably. By doing so, we set an example and a standard for other's to play by. That's why I suggest you paying the fee, because in a way, it is taking the high moral ground and setting a good example for other's interactions with money and the people around them.
Anxious58 wrote:I don't see myself going to another doctor just to find another person to give money to for no reason.
I suppose how helpful you find the person you end up seeing in a way dictates whether you feel you have a reason to pay that person money. For instance, I would say that my therapist is exceptionally helpful and hence I feel I have a really good reason to pay him money because his knowledge and expertise really do make much more of a difference to me than talking to your average person. I suppose I would hope for you that you would be able to find someone similarly good. But if you are feeling discouraged at the moment and don't want to go back to see someone, I can really understand that. I felt like that after seeing my first crap therapist too.
Anxious58 wrote:By handing them money it's apparent they do not care.
Whilst some do not care, I think quite a lot of them do. Personally if therapy didn't involve me paying for it, I would feel like a hassle being there and hence that wouldn't allow me to talk about the things I needed to, because I would feel I was being a burden or annoying. By paying the money, it actually sets up a therapeutic environment because you know they are not doing you a favour and you can be as blunt and attention-hogging as you need to be in order to improve your mental health and because you've paid them money, with no need to feel guilty about it. This is actually really important to your healing and improvement.
Anxious58 wrote:We could provide every homeless person in either of our countries (i'm from australia, not sure where you are) or even the whole of ######6 africa with water, food, shelter and education if we wanted to.
I can understand what you are getting at here and why you feel angry about it. Though it may be a little off topic for a mental health forum.
Anxious58 wrote:I know what I am, (but not why I am in some regards, though in some cases it is clear).
I know what I need to be mentally happy.
I need to not feel helpless (security). I need people i can actually trust and be close to, someone to empathise with. I need to do something I enjoy.
I think it's good that you've identified these things. I hope you make improvement in these areas like you are aiming to...