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Hiya,

I hope I am poting this in the right place, I wasn't quite sure where to put it as it combines many various problems, and I think i should warn anyone with self injury or eating problems that this may be tirggering.

I dunno why I am poting this here, I fear I am going crazy and I can chat to no-one about it, but keeping it all to myself is making me so frustrated.

I have had problems for as long as I can remember, especially social problems, I hate/fear being around people so much so that I can't even leave the house anymore, I haven't been outside for over a year now, I fear being touched more than anything too.

I have had depression for about 8 years now also been self injuring for the same amount of time and had anorexia on and off for about the same amount of time.

I tend to hear and see things, things which I know other people won't be able to see or hear, and there's no way I can proove to them that they are real, and I know how crazy it sounds which is why I don't tell anyone about it, I have a hard time hiding it sometimes, my mother knows I have depression and some of the other stuff so I'm usually alright to show that but the other stuff is really hard to keep hidden, I have nearly been caught out a few times.

I dunno what to do, I can't see a psychologist for many reasons, I guess I really just needed to get it out my system by posting it somewhere anonomously like on here, thanx.

You have to try so hard to go out in public however you should try taking it slow and maybe go out in the evenings and work from there. Seeing and Hearing things maybe from spending to much time alone.

Do you have any close family members or friends you can share all this with? You really need a support system, and maybe some help at finding a good psychiatrist. I'm not a doctor, but it does sound like you may need some chemical help of some kind. At any rate, friends and family are a BIG help!

The problem is I don't really have anyone close to talk with about it. Due to my social phobia I have no friends, my mum is having serious financial problems at the moment and is stressed enough already without me dumping this on her, and my dad I only speak to once every 2 or 3 months.

Try checking with the Public Health facility in your area. They usually have help for people with no insurance or financial problems. Sometimes in the yellow pages there are help lines for people too.