got help. FINALY!

me and my mom had a long heartfelt conversation about how people come to be the way they are. it was mostly about her mother (went to my grams house for thanksgiving). but i wasn't afraid to talk to her. so i brought up that i think something is wrong with me. and just like that she suggested i should go to theripy. i told her i guess. it took me about 20 minutes to come up with 'i guess' but i did it! she said 'ok then. i'll set it up when we move' (in a couple weeks). i can't beleive how easy it was.

... god it took me long enough though. i'm just afraid the therapist will find nothing wrong with me and send me home. when i explane i think i have panic atachs, it makes sence why i'm afraid she'll say nothings wrong with me. i hate to have them.

i think there's something else wrong with me too though. i cut, and i want to hurt people all the time. and i have massiva mood swings. yesterday i was wondering how i was going to make it though the day, i wanted to die in my sleep. the day before that i was bouncing off the walls. yeah, i think i'm biplar, but then what explains the hurting ppl thing?

oh well, i don't have to guess now, i'm going to the doctor! ... i'm kinda nervouse though

Good job. You took the first step--asking for help. This part may be the hardest. Just be honest with the doctor. He may have medicine for you, or he may think you just need to talk to someone. Young people do often go through periods of anxiety and mood swings, but talking to someone would help with that also.
Good Luck,
Jim S

Hey,
CONGRATS!! I'm really proud of you, and I'm glad that the first part (talking to your mom) went so well!!

Don't be afriad that the therapist will say nothigns wrong and send you home!! I finally learned (after angel repeatedly reminded me, lol **Angel if you're reading, thanx, lol) that it's not a good idea to try to diagnose yourself. So I wouldn't go in believing that I had a certain thing if I were you. And even if nothing's wrong with you (as in no mental illness/personality disorder/mental disorder/etc. ) you still ahve some problems that need to be worked out, and the counselor will realize that if you just let him/her in on what's going on with you. They can help you figure out what's causing your problems whether it be mental disorder or something else. GEEZE!! lol I sound like all of the peoplle that gave me advice!!! lol I have a bad habit of giving advice that I didn't even take myself, but I hope you will take it. hope that made sense!!!

GOod luck!!!

*hugs*

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