What is wrong with me? Someone please help.

Someone please tell me what is wrong with me.

I overreact to even the smallest things.

I overanalyze everything people say to me.

My mood fluctuates a lot. I am either very happy or extremely depressed - there is no in between.

I can't just do something a little bit, I become extremely obsessed with whatever it is and cannot stop until I am satisfied.

I have a bad temper.

I either sleep a lot or cannot sleep at all. My level of energy remains the same whether or not I have slept.

I go through stages where I don't eat at all.

I cry a lot.

Sometimes I space out and forget where I am going or what I am doing. Sometimes I forget that I have done certain things.

I have begun drinking a lot in the past few months, but only at night when I can't sleep. I had all of the other symptoms before beginning to drink, so it is a way of coping and not vice versa.

I am addicted to sex. I have unprotected sex with people I barely know and then think "what in the world have I done?" later on. I have cheated on every person I have been in a serious relationship with. I don't want to do this anymore.

I have no real friends. I cannot get close to people. They make me very nervous. I'd like to have friends, but cannot bring myself to get close to people.

I have attempted suicide and thought about it a lot in the past, but I don't seriously entertain it now.

Can someone help me figure out what is wrong? I am trying to find a psych. but am having trouble because I have no insurance and need someone I can afford. Thanks.

At one time or another, I have felt and done as you are doing. I was lucky to have alcoholism among my many problems, so I was able to go to AA. AA took care of my alcoholism and all of my other problems besides. Have you tired reading any self-help books? Many of them describe the things you talk about. Your mood swings and some of the other behaviors you described sound a bit like bipolar. Have you tried religion? Many find help there.

I get a lot of help from writing in a journal every day. I write about my dreams, my fears, and my feelings. Today, I am leading the kind of life I have always wanted to live, yet I once felt a lot of negative things like you. I had to find out what I wanted in life, stop blaming everyone, then take action one day at a time to build the kind of life I wanted. I had to come to trust that you get out of this world what you put into it.
Good Luck,
Jim S

Thank you so much for replying. I had thought it sounded a lot like bipolar, but wasn't sure if I was just trying to make myself fit into that little mold. I am going to go buy some books today, so that maybe I can help myself. I tried calling therapists today, but didn't get any answers - either busy signal or voice mail.

Thanks for the suggestions. Religion isn't for me, but I have tried journaling and it does help sometimes.

hi abyss,

from your list of symptoms, it sounds like either bipolar disorder or Borderline Personality Disorder, but i can't diagnose you, because i'm not a doctor.

Is it possible for you to find a psychiatrist and set an appointment. A psychiatrist could help you determine what it is you have and precribe medications.
A therapist would be a good idea too. They could help you sort through your problems and such.

i hope things get better for you. Good luck

-Becka

Thanks, I did get in to see a psych. today and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I don't really think I am happy with this though.