i dont know what this is, help me

i dont know what is going on with me. i have been driving for a year and whenever i drive a lot of the times i have this urge to close my eyes while still driving. usually my goal is for 5 seconds but i hardly ever even try for 1. and usually i do not do it but it drives me crazy.
well about two days ago i gave in and at about 4 i crashed into a median. my car is okay but it needs a few repairs. i lied to everyone and told them that a semi truck ran me off the road. the lie i told has made me very sick to my stomach and depressed lately, and the urges to close my eyes on the road again are so bad now that i hate driving more than anything. i can almost never stop thinking about it i cannot even drown it out with my music. i cant focus on much outside of driving either. help me what is happening how can i fix this..

im 15 and i dont drive yet, but its weird, I get the same urge as you sometimesbut in differnt things. I will get get up to the plate in baseball practice and will want to see how long i can close my eyes before the ball comes to me or something, and it really annoys me to. it dosnt happen as much as it used to, but i hope it dosnt happen again. It sucks ass, I wonder if its somekind of disease or sumtin

i do not know and i am trying to find out because i do not want this to get worse.

i don't really know for sure what the problem could be, but it might be something like obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD)
Do you get lots of anxiety and/or feel like something bad will happen if you don't close your eyes when your driving?

i have schizophrenia and i get a lot of what is called " grossly disorganized behaviors" Things i want to do, or do do, like i get the urge to go outside and pick the bark off a tree, or pull the grass out of the ground for no apparent reason, or sometimes when im driving, i get a strong urge to crash my car into a tree, or drive it into the other lane of traffic.....it's not like im angry or i want to die or anything, i don't know why i want to do it.

anyways, i think its real important that you tell someone about this as soon as possible and you should probably not even be driving if the urge to close your eyes is so strong that you've already gotten yourself into an accident. You could be putting your life or someone else's at risk.

You need to see a psychiatrist about this so they can determine what is causing this and get you some treatment.

good luck.

-Becka

i see, that is really helpful. i see you have some similar kinds of things .. and its not just closing my eyes, like what if i do this or that for no reason at all. i dont like driving anymore, now that i've been in the accident it just made it worse. but before the accident i only had that urge once every few months or so, now it is every time i drive. i don't feel like something bad will happen if i don't, but my mind keeps telling me something like "once you've done it you can feel alright cuz you have" but then i remember i tried and before the 5 seconds were up i crashed. i have to be listening to music to distract myself as much as i can from the thoughts now. its almost painful sometimes.