gahhhh HELP

Somedays, everything just sucks. And the fact that I'm spending TEN HOURS a day in summer school to get a PE credit. Ten ######6 hours of PE. This was the first day, and it sucked. I came home more depressed than ever. I don't want to keep feeling this way... but I can't tell my parents either, so I can't find any help and I'm not even sure I can find help anywhere. I'm lost and I feel awful. It's starting to seem like suicide is the only way to stop it. To stop the oversensitivity, the constant mood swings, the everything. I can't handle it. I don't know what to do... other than end it...
And I'm itchy ALL OVER... has anyone had that problem? Does anything stop it? I can't sleep because I itch so much. GAH. And nothing in real life is going right... oh, and there's a spider around here somewhere. I wish it'd go outside and kill flies instead of scaring me. I can't do this any of this I can't. AND I'M ITCHY.

Hello,

PLEASE don't even consider suicide to be an option!!

*hugs* I'm having to do a ton of school right now too. You see, I'm homeschooled and I got behind this year, so I have quite a bit to catch up on.

Why can't you tell your parents?

It's funny that you said that last bit, because last night, I was itching like crazy. And after doing my spider check (I scan the ceiling with my eyes to see if any eight-legged freaks are up there), so i found one of the little demons, and my mom killed it for me. Yep, I'm terrified of them!!

I'll be praying for you and thinking about you. I can relate to the whole school thing a lot!!

If you need to talk, I'm here to listen.

~element

well....suicide is always an option, so is eating food, BUT DONT DO IT (you can eat food) spiders suck....and yes i get itchy when i try to sleep, but usually from being hot i guess, my psycholgoist told me to get some fans to cool me down and get some backround noise (i hear voices)