Living hell, and maybe finding an answer

I'm sorry you are so upset with my response.

I think you said: "I've discovered, there are no similar program that are not based on God or whatever spiritual being you believe in. This irks me a little. Someone should really consider starting up such a group based on the notion of human experience rather than divine knowledge. If there was such a group, people like me, and I'm not the only atheist around, would probably be more likely to attend. Until then, I’ll consider this forum my form of group therapy. " So I thought you would be interested in organizations that did not involve a God. I was only trying to help.

Yes, maybe I do push AA on people. But I hope that besides the people who get angry, a few will try AA.

I hope you do find what you want and what you need. There are many ways of getting better. We each have our ways. Keep posting and others will give you advice from another perspective.
Good Luck,
Jim S