Not doing so well...

I'm not doing very well today. I'm okay, but I'm about to have to work on some school work, and just the thought gets me down, because I know I'm so behind, and it sux!! And I'm really trying to put an end to my si problem, but when I get upset over such things, it makes me want to hurt myself really bad. I'm preetty stressed out right now. No where near as bad as I was a few months ago, but I'm still not doing great. So if you could all be thinking about me. I don't know how that really helps, but ya know. And don't be surprized if I'm on here later, and I'm all depressed and stuff. And don't be surprized if I'm confessing because I hurt myself again. I really hate to call it confessing, so I don't believe i"ll call it that any more.

Thanks,

~element

*is thinking of you* i hope it helps sweetie

when im behind on schoolwork i usually make it in little bits... like work one hour the play the next.. on and off so to say.. maybe its usefull?

if you do cut, we are here for you but if you dont, well we will still be here

I know how overwhelming it can be when you have certain things facing you. I get overwhelmed myself in the things I have before me. "TM" has give you some great advice....


hugs to you and here to support you whether you cut or don't...but praying for you that you don't!

(((Element)))

I'm here for you sweetie...whether or not you cut...you are still respected and cared for by me!

Cyber Hugs Comin You Way,
Kathy

Hey element!

I'm thinkin about you . We're all in this together, so remember that your never alone! Keep us posted so we know how your doing! Anyway, if you feel like sending me a private message feel free to do so! Otherwise, I'm here for you anyway.

Thanks to all of you!! It is so incredibly great for me to have somewhere to go when I'm having a hard time.

*is thinking of you* i hope it helps sweetie

when im behind on schoolwork i usually make it in little bits... like work one hour the play the next.. on and off so to say.. maybe its usefull?

if you do cut, we are here for you but if you dont, well we will still be here

Thanks, and you are a sweetie yourself. Thanks for the advice!! I'm having a very hard time with school right now, and that should probably help me a lot. I have like 10 weeks worth of stuff to do in 3-4 weeks. Talk about being stressed out!! But anyway, thanks.

I know how overwhelming it can be when you have certain things facing you. I get overwhelmed myself in the things I have before me. "TM" has give you some great advice....


hugs to you and here to support you whether you cut or don't...but praying for you that you don't!

Thanks, Angel!! I think I can resist the cutting temptation, but the headbanging one is a little harder, because I never promised not to do it. I do like cutting more though. So far, I've been okay today. I just need to get busy on some annoying school work. Yesterday my mom fussed at me a little and told me that I needed to do more or I would be doing school until next year's school starts. I told her to stop it because if she didn't I would throw up. I really felt very sick to the stomach. She apologized later, but I still felt like crap!!

(((Element)))

I'm here for you sweetie...whether or not you cut...you are still respected and cared for by me!

Cyber Hugs Comin You Way,
Kathy

Thanks Kathy!! THat makes me feel a lot better.

Hey element!

I'm thinkin about you . We're all in this together, so remember that your never alone! Keep us posted so we know how your doing! Anyway, if you feel like sending me a private message feel free to do so! Otherwise, I'm here for you anyway.

Thanks for the support, Heather. It makes me feel a lot better to hear all of the nice things that all of you have said to me!! If I get depressed today, I'll remind myself that you all care about me by remembering what all of you said.

Ahh I know that feeling... overwhelmed. Being behind sucks, it's so stressful. I just finished all my finals and am utterly relieved... I can definitely emphasize with you though. Good luck! I'll send some positive thoughts your way too.

Thanks!! I appreciate it!

Well, thankfully, I didn't really get too depressed today. I got a little bit sad, but nothing major, and it had nothing to do with school. The bad news is, I didn't really do any school today. I was busy for part of the day (today is my sister's prom day). But at least I didn't get badly depressed. I just wish I had done some school!! I'm so far behind, and it is so overwhelming.

I've been extremely parnoid lately. It's usually just at night, but sometimes it's during the day. I've been having crazy dreams too. A lot of nightmares, and a lot of just really odd dreams. I hate paranoia!! It sux!! I wish i could quit having these nightmares. It's driving me insane. And insanity is just as bad as parnoia!!

~element

Element,

Everytime my depression acts up I get these psychotic symptoms. For example: I live with my son and at night when I am in my living room watching TV I keep hearing the footsteps of a stranger walking up my basement stairs. It really freaks me out!!!

Sending positive thoughts your way Element

Kathy