I think I’m dead, in the afterlife

I haven’t felt this way before. Tw for mentions of physical illness and, well, death and unreality

I have DID and at first I thought that’s what it was, the symptoms. It’s just, everyone around me keeps appearing as “fake” or “real” or “like me (in the sense of also being dead)”. It’s likely dissociation but it keeps coming back and bothering us. Memories worse than usual, honestly everything’s just been wrong and off for weeks. People act different, surroundings are different, things don’t work the way they usually do and it’s weird. I think I might be dead, or more preferably unconscious so I can get back to my life. I don’t know. Am I in the inner world? Was I always? Any answers would be nice. I will be telling a psychiatrist and therapist tomorrow at group therapy, I just wanted opinions from not them, too. Thanks!

lets say you are dead, what can you do about it? nothing.
dont worry about stuff you cant control, just unnecessary stress.

osako has a point- the Dead cannot die, so no point in fearing you are dead- if you were, then you'd already have died. That's the hard part, right? Then after that, fear of Hell- well, if this isn't Heaven, at least it's not the Biblical depiction of Hell, quite.

This sounds very dissociative to me- either it's expressing itself... maybe more strong than it has? Or in a different way? Or... since y'all are DID- are you even the 'you' you think you are? Maybe a part is co-fronting that hasn't? We've... been having a lot of problems with feeling 'muddled' lately not sure who is who. And we're not even DID. How much more, when you have full blown DID, yeah?

Let us know how the therapy went.

I agree with the comments here, there is no point to worry about those we can't control.

I have sometimes felt like i have died to this world. To the point where if someone gets close to telling me I have died it upsets me greatly. I feel like a long lost lore of some sort. I have held so many secrets from the world, to people i knew, to everything...I wonder if i would feel alive if i put my lips to the grassy meadows and started whispering the things i have been hiding back into the Earth.

We will both come back to life soon. We both must first remind the Earth of our existence. How we are living more than it, maybe even those around us. Start whispering to the Earth.

Lucid wrote:I wonder if i would feel alive if i put my lips to the grassy meadows and started whispering the things i have been hiding back into the Earth.

I don't know, but you tempt me to try it.

Hey, I'm sorry I'm late for this, just wanted to say that what you describe feels a lot like one experience I had with Cotard's Delusion. I understand it can be stressful and even dangerous to feel like you're dead, and I hope you are farinha better!