by 40Kstudentloans » Mon May 16, 2005 5:38 pm
As a person dealing with delusional disorder and paranoia the last 10 years or so, I use the forum to glimpse the point of view of the other person.the one dealing with me, and to confirm that much of my "thought" or delusions are not real. After the third diagnosis of DD I began to have insight, and looked at the forum a couple of years ago. Seeing the descriptions of not just symptoms exactly like mine, but exact fears- husband cheating, persecution by others, people entering house and taking things, etc. lconfirms for me when I'm doubting it's me, that it is, in fact me. This does not make the problem go away, however.
I wish I could go the the forum for support. The DD forum is used by spouses to vent their frustrations, and often their sense of hopelessness, and looking at it has often sent me into suicidal thinking and more. It's also painful, but I reach for it when I'm going crazy with feelings of betrayal, loss and extreme fear. I'm hope to find areas of the forum that feel better for people like me.
Some people do care.