On the night of December 21, 2020, I was woken up from my sleep by a demonic sounding voice telling me to masturbate to a woman that I do not like. I resisted the urge, my body was shaking. Then after a few moments, the voice told me to masturbate or else I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep for the rest of the night. After what felt like 2 hours of resisting the urge, I caved and masturbated to the thought of me having missionary sex with the woman. I immediately dropped to sleep and woke up before my alarm.
Here's some background information as to why I don't like this woman:
1. She's super inappropriate and embarrassing in public places. She often makes very vulgar and racist comments. She believes a lot of conspiracy theories over actual facts and says these things out loud.
2. Her brother, people from church, and some of her male friends have all come to me recommending that I should date her. I am not interested and never have been.
3. One time I saw her on Tinder and as a joke I super liked her (which I do to everyone I know personally). She didn't match with me, but instead she posted an embarrassing video of me (which I don't know how she got a hold of the video in the first place) to her Instagram story, tagged me in it, apologized, then unfollowed me. Weirdo behavior.
I have not seen, talked to, or even thought of this woman in about 2 months and she appears in this demon attack. I went back through my old text messages to see if I could find any correlation and the freaky thing is her birthday December 21, the same night of the attack. I'm freaking out and don't know what any of this means. Can someone help?