The masking and adapting have exhausted me and I’ve just stopped. I can’t do the basics at home,
crying helps me. I've told my roommate I have depression so please bear with me. I once broke down before him. he invites me to a few parties often but I've declined n he's ok with it.
I don't have to wear a mask of happiness before him.
I can hardly stand to be with my daughter and I know that I’m failing her, I can’t even stand to be be around the dog let alone walk it.
please don't do this to your daughter. you wouldn't want her to also have some struggle. I'm not saying to have Disney level fun with her but at times even a game of cards... something to spend time with her so she can rely on you. if she doesn't get attention from you, she will seek it elsewhere n that elsewhere may not be a good place.
I have ended up leaving my job because I couldn’t go on so now my husband is working overtime to keep us afloat financially but this means I never see him.
doing a part time job may help with confidence. i was very low n started doing volunteer work for a magazine. my work was to reply to emails. it didn't solve anything, but killed time.
I feel like I can’t do anything on my own,
no one can do anything on their own. we all need help. a doctor needs help(nurses) while performing surgery. this is why I was saying to be there for your daughter. she also would be lonely. i'm not saying go out on a picnic with her, but start small. maybe just have a conversation with her with the television switched off.
but I also can’t be around people. I’m tired of reading crap on Facebook saying you just need a positive mindset and to keep going, it doesn’t bloody work but how do I get back before everything is lost?
I've deleted my facebook account. watching others happy only made me sad. I also don't watch tv. don't want more drama in my life.
mental illness is very difficult to live with. can u seek a therapist? that helped me while it lasted. now i'm looking for a new one at new city.
but therapy hasn't solved much problems.. it just prevented further escalation.