my aunt's trying to help

my life's kinda been on hold, havent worked in almost a year and really focused on recovery, self awareness, etc. i sometimes really get isolated and freaked out in my apt and feel so deatched from life. today while kinda feeling lost i had been meditating then journaling about things when my aunt called me. she lives far away from me in virginia beach. i am not really sure what she knows of my situation beyond the fact that i cant find a career and havent been working for awhile, i dont know what she knows about my depression and pain. she did send me a self help book ten years ago so i am sure my parents may have told people over the years. so i picked up the phone and heard my aunt, who never really calls me, and she said she would like me to come stay with her family for a month. her mom, my grandmother, has her own apt in the back of the house and she went to italy for a month so i could stay there. i was like totally thrown for a loop, she was just like come stay with us, see how we live up here, see what life is like somewhere else for awhile and maybe get some perspective and clarity. she said just hang out , go to the beach, chill with her daughters (my cousins) and you could go to work with your uncle or aunt and see what they do. such a strange call at a time when i was so lost in my own recovery world. she has always asked me to come visit for family gatherings in the past but never such a direct invite by myself and for an extended period. my parents where with her and her family in bermuda recently and before this my parents and I had a long, desperate talk about what to do about my life so maybe my parents expressed how much despair i am in. dunno, at this point i almost hope they did so i dont have to put on a happy charade anymore and people really know what i am dealing with, more than just a job search its a fight for my soul. so i really dont know what she knows but i am not sure what to do. going to live with them for a month really takes me out of my comfort zone, where i do nothing really. it might be stressful or weird. maybe they just want to really help me. i am kinda touched that she called like that, maybe i should just go up there. it would be about a 15 hour drive but maybe there is some therapuetic value in going to see someone who wants to see you.....how many people in life truly care about us and ask to see us? maybe i need to get over my ego, insecurities and do something different. i dont know....everything just seems like such an effort sometimes.....very interesting phone call though...just thought i would share that

Do you think it would be a drag going there?
Do you think that them trying to help could make things any worse?
it dosnit matter if its in your uncomfort zone, everything was once in our uncomfort zone, going to school talking with some one new.
I can honestly say that most people have great fun going to school.(yea its a darg its har d work tis boring whatever no one can say they have no good memories of it)
She said you could work with your aunt, this is a job opertunitiy at least think about taking it.
I think it is much easier to deal with problems and things with people instead of just yourself.
If you decide to go just be yourself try to have a good time, dont feel weird because of the circumstances or your problems.
"Just let the wind take you"

I think you should go. You can always drive back if you really hate it and it make thigns horrible worse.(give it a few days though)
It could help you it could change your live for the better, i say take that chance.
But you need to decide for yourself dont jstu go because me or others sya we tihnk you should, go because you think it might be good or because you want to.

Wow! It sounds like you have a great support system and an amazing opportunity. I can understand the difficulty of changing something when you feel like you're drowning in the quicksand of life and helplessness. It's hard to break out of your comfort zone, but I think it would be an important step to get out and do something new.... if you aren't in need of visits to your shrink and can get away without worrying about your health.

It might be an incredibly good experience... I strongly recommend taking the chance (although it sounds as if it isn't like much is at risk here). Go for it!!!!

yes it could be a positive experience. ive always shyed away from any kind of family gathering, just always felt so badly or embarassed about myself largely from the irrational thinking and pain from depression. its funny, well not really funny more like sad, but i will go to a gathering and an uncle or someone will be so interested in me and treat me like i am such a great guy where i would be feeling like i am about to dissolve into the ground and be desperately trying to appear all together. i remember my uncle saying he had this great girl for me to meet and i was thinking you have got to be kidding me, why would u think any girl would like me? then i would be stuck between the overwhelming desire to find a great girl and the overwhelming feeling of complete inadequacy and just find ways to sabotage myself and isolate, umphhh. it could be awkward going up there if they just focus on helpng me find a career when that isnt really my major problem, if i felt good i would have a career by now like everyone else i know. i guess i could open up and share my story at the risk of being embarassed. i think they know that i have had issues to some extent although my uncle did recently ask me why i didnt have a girlfriend which is always painful to hear. well there is a tropical storm over theire area now so i will think about it today. it could be weird if i let it be, if i am open and not concerned with all the subplots it could be alright. it could set me back another month though in my job search down here.....whatever, i will probably leave this part of the country when my lease is up anyhow.....i am so isolated down here, although a few old friends passed through town this week i really had no interest in seeing them casue it reminded me of my old destructive ways and the fictional person i am growing away from.....thanks for the commnets and advice, i'll ponder this over some and probably visit for some duration, maybe not a month but at least visit......