Im terrified. (I found out I have serial killing traits)

Ok, Well, im not sure if this is the right forum for this, but im very frightened, first of all let me introduce myself, im taylor, im 15, and im above an average intellect(one trait ).

I have only been diagnosed with anxiety and obbsessive compulsive disorder, and a little bit of hypocondria(im sure I spelt that wrong.)

The traits are:

1. Over 90 percent of serial killers are male.
im male

2. They tend to be intelligent, with IQ's in the "bright normal" range.

yup =\

3. They do poorly in school, have trouble holding down jobs, and often work as unskilled laborers.

I have potential, but I sometimes skipped school, or refused work.

4. They tend to come from markedly unstable families.

my dad is always in and out of he picture with drugs and or alcohol, and my mom is submissive.

5. As children, they are abandoned by their fathers and raised by domineering mothers.

yup. 'cept my mom was submissive.

6. Their families often have criminal, psychiatric and alcoholic histories.
criminal no, psychiatric, yes, and alcoholic, only 2.

7. They hate their fathers and mothers.

I love both my parents dearly.

8. They are commonly abused as children - psychologically,
physically and sexually. Often the abuse is by a family member.

I haven't been abused remarkably physically, but my dad used to say pretty hurtful stuff, and he's overprotective of my little brother, on about 5 occasions, he hurt me if I picked on him, but not completely beat me, just bruised my arm or something.

9. Many serial killers spend time in institutions as children and have records of early psychiatric problems.

I've been put in the hospital for a day due to an anxiety attack, I have a fear of vomiting since and incident in 1st grade.

10. They have high rates of suicide attempts.

I really don't want to die, it's one of my fears.

11. From an early age, many are intensely interested in voyeurism, fetishism, and sado-masochistic pornography.

im not intensely interested in porn, but i've looked at it since 12

12. More than 60 percent of serial killers wet their beds beyond the age of 12.

nope.

13. Many serial killers are fascinated with fire starting.

I started fires until I was 13, but only with sheets of toilet paper, and only about 7 times, and it wasn't really that exciting.

14. They are involved with sadistic activity or tormenting small creatures.

Im sad to say that I did this, it wasn't anything that could kill them, or harm them alot, but it would make them upset, I only did this in front of friends, and sometimes I foudn they did it without me, so I thought it to be normal. the most comon thing would be squirting them with water, never further then putting them under laundery baskets. I've vowed never to do it again. though my friend kind of maltreats his animals, and it makes me feel bad. looks back on doing it, it scares me, and I start to cry, I can't believe I would do that to defenseless cats, I didn't even care until after it was done, and I thought it funny, but not anymore....

So you can see why im scared, i've recently read this list by accident, and came to this horrid realizaition, that I could turn out to be a sicko, the kind of guys you think of when your scared.

I fear these people, I don't want to be one, I can't even imagine killing someone in self defense, and everytime my brother has gotten on my nerves, i've never hurt him badly, i've always restrained myself from hurting others.

I just want to know if it's too late to change, or if I should give up all hope and admit myself into the ward right now, im so scared, tears are running down my cheecks as I write this...

I had dreams, dreams of becoming a proffesional animator or computer expert, and raising a family with a loving wife...I've changed my ways doing most of those activities before the age of 14, and I've already made a resolution to stop the rest, an even take medication, I just want to be normal, I just want to be one of those guys you see driving his leased volkswagon to work, and come home to the woman I love....

I compared this to fate, and ominous feeling that your going to become something, like when someone has an incurabe cancer, and they can't change that they'll die, I won't be able to change that i'll be one of those knife-weilding manical scumbags that you see on court TV.

I know im full willing to put forth the effort to change all of this if it's possible, I don't want my life to take a turn like I fear it is going to.

Um.....no.

lol....no you silly bastard

A: those statistics are off. And some are plain wrong.
B: Serial murder isnt impulsive, so you dont have to worry about becoming that way. When it is impulsive its not serial murder....its called rampaging.
C: Serial muder wasnt defined by the FBI and they commonly ###$ up there information. These same charecteristics are held by lawyers, police officers, joe blow who ever.


It's broken into Visionaries, missionaries and hedonists. And broken down into that by organized and unorganized personality types.

The point is one or a combination of Lust, Power, Hate or thrill. Wether the individual know's it or not there is always a meaning behind the act, or the ritual. They always have an MO (modus operandi).

You have absolutly nothing to worry or concern yourself with.


1. Over 90 percent of serial killers are male.
im male

Actully 99. something percent are male. Theres only been a few cases of "Speculated" female serial killings. Alieen wournos robbed her male victims as that was her point. There was no psychological reason. It was finacial gain...But there were bodys so the media reported serial killings, while by FBI and standard criteria she is not.

Jeanne Weber in france in 1910 would be a case of a femal serial killer.

2. They tend to be intelligent, with IQ's in the "bright normal" range

Anther popular myth. The avarage serial killer is more of a henry lee lucas intellignce. The ted bundys and edmund kempers are far from normal.

4. They tend to come from markedly unstable families

It's about 50/50


5. As children, they are abandoned by their fathers and raised by domineering mothers.

lol, Not at all.


7. They hate their fathers and mothers

Nope, theres more then enough evidence to disprove that.

A large number of serial killers also happen to be psychopathic.....its different from sociopathic but still apart of antisocial personality disorder. Now a psychopath would have no problem say skinning a dog while it was alive. Yet less then 1% of psychopaths are serial killers. And only 1% of people with antisocial personality disorders are psychopathic. I'm just commong to the point that you really, really are overracting.

Thanks, you really helped ease my mind, I know I would never conciously make the choice to hurt someone, and i've yet to have a blackout attack, I guess the over-reacting was my small dose of hypocondria for the month, I've already started to make myself develop some empathy by putting myself in peoples places, and for some reason, it feels good not to be an antisocial jerk, who's only friends are the kind similar to yourself, im definetely going to fly right form this point on, no more being mean to any living thing.

you know I thin we all have fears that we could turn out to something real bad,or something really screwed up,or a failure is another one.

I think its correct that you could be a bit hypercondriac. That explains why you would even think for a minute that you could possibly turn out to be a seriel killer! From what iv read,you wouldnt sound like one to me,thats going by the statistics you wrote,and the comparisons with yourself.You sound about as normal as anyone else,so how could you even think that of yourself

do you have thoughts of strange things you want to do to people? If not, I definitely would not worry. If you do, I would recommend talking to someone first. Posting here would be a good way to protect yourself. You would know you would be catchable. I always tell everyone how I want to assassinate my former boss. That keeps me from thinking I can get away with it, so I don't do it.

We're only as sick as our secrets... ever here that? If you can tell your darkest secrets to someone, chances are you are doing well...in my experience anyway.

I have plenty of strange thoughts of things I would do to people, but to be honest, I don't generally focus that way... I am just saying, don't be afraid of sick thoughts coming into your head. It's when they start taking you over that you are in trouble. Everyone has sick-sounding thoughts, only a rare few start seeing them as good ideas.

Here is another one I had.... there is this court building... where I had some things go against what I believe is right.. and it hurt me seriously... so I figured when I am 75, I could maybe blow the place up in the middle of the night, so no one would get hurt, but I could make a statement. I figured if I got caught, what could they really do to hurt me at that point? I gave it up, because I really cannot honestly see how a large building could be blown up with a guranatee of no one getting hurt, without some visibility I would not want to risk. And again, I told a few folks... so I know I won't do it.

The fact that you would care to ask is strong evidence you are not the serial killer type, I would think. Don't those guys tend toward serious isolation? They also tend to be extremely dishonest in flagrant ways. Like pretending a whole personality and life that is not really theirs.

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LOL!!! To our young concerned "serial killer" ...lol...
You have absolutely NOTHING to worry about and quit diagnosing yourself..My young friend, i was raised on the really rough end of the tracks and believe me you are know murderer...
I didn't ever commit any violent crimes, but the people I hung out with sure did from armed robbery to murder..and these people were a hek of lot more in anti-social spectrum than you..and NONE of them became serial killers...you are filling your head with a lot of nonsense...if you were soooooo psychopathic...then you wouldn't be "worried" about it and posting such things about yourself...
that alone shows that you have a "conscience"..hardly the trait of a serial killer..Geeezus...lol...
So..RELAX..you sound like a perfectly normal kid to me...

Attention-seeking personality disorder perhaps?

i really doubt thats the case, i fit all of those excpet 1 and ive never killed anyone. i really dont even like to eat meat that much excpet for fish they have no feelings.

i really doubt thats the case, i fit all of those excpet 1 and ive never killed anyone. i really dont even like to eat meat that much excpet for fish they have no feelings.