Im terrified. (I found out I have serial killing traits)

Oh, dear....this demonstrates the dangers of trying to diagnose yourself, especially under the age of say 30 or 40...

Hon, males who display traits like enjoying S&M porn, abuse animals and the rest are deeply into these diversions. They don't, for instance, just bother animals like you said you do or did; true serial killers torture them, usually to death, escalating over time. Being upset you squirted water on some pets probably takes you out of the danger zone.

Try to relax.

i have more of those characteristics than you and i've never killed anyone. (into S&M, voyeurism, crappy parent, crappy home life, psychiatric history blah blah blah)

i mean, i have decided already that if anyone killed my boyfriend i would cut them open and eat their heart, but it's just a fantasy. the real warning signs are when you start thinking that killing is normal or that god told you to do it or whatever.

I think what you actually suffer with is perhaps a mild case of hypochondria.

I also hit similar ways with those answers. I've done a lot of research on serial killers and i think they're really interesting people. I read about them all the time and I'm really fascinated by their life.
Sure what they do is wrong (probably) but at least they left and were will be remembered for years unlike everyone on this forum most likely.

They've done something in there life that they wanted to do and knew the consequence.
I'm probably not going to become a serial killer becuase I'm only 21 and dont really feel like doing to jail; but hey they're interesting people.

So even if those traits are myths
doesn't they mean anything if they where al true?

I do fit in also.

I am somewhat intelligent.
I am smart but misadjusted and unmotivated.
I do come from a unstable family.
My mother raised me after divorse and raised me badly.
I really have a cold and calcylated hate-love relationship.
Due to bad history.
I spend my childhood at an alternative private school
for the misadapted.
When I was like 10 I fantasied about death-sex ampng other crazy things.
Fire is fashinating but so are many things.

Could that mean anything?

They are interesting yes.
Mostly because they remind us of existence that we take for granted.
It's ironic. We are afraid of dying and still these antromorphications, that these "persons" are
they live our lives for us, they live life so much better than we do
but they kill us.
Then we live secure lifes without killers, these lives we are unhappy with and take for granted.
Everyone says, we should be happy with $#%^ just because it's normal and life has become taken for granted.

There should be a function so you could se when who qoutes whom,
just as we seen what whos the last massage was.

dont you worry, you are not a serial killer, lol....Those traits aren't accurate, and you didn't even have all of them....I have squirted cats with water...that isn't torture, it doesn't hurt them, it just startles them, I love pets, and I would never hurt them....real sadistic people will, like mentioned earlier, toruture little animals to death, because they are sick people that want control and like seeing others in pain.....

....on another note, I can to relate....I am a hypochondiac, not so much anymore, but I understand what it is like....from age 10 until around fourteen, I used to take my temperature 20-30 times a day, I had the thermomeater by my bed side, and I took it with me everywhere, I always knew when my temperature was, and if it went up or down I would panic....and I wanted to be sick, and I would convince myself that I was.....I don't know how many brain tumors I thought I had, and neurological conditions, and everything....I think I felt that if I were sick I would be taken care of....And with your abusive past, that maybe what you are looking for as well...

Eventually my thermomeater went dead, and my mom refused to buy me a new one (and I was too young to have a job), I then learned about hypochondria, I denied it at first, but now have taught myself that if I feel sick, I probably am not sick, and just to ignore it....I still search for symptoms, I can't help it, but at least I realise what I am doing....I might have a numb finger, headache and a face twitch, and I might think about it, obsses about it, run it through my head over and over again, and look up causes, ask about it online, but I reolise if I find a cause it doesn't matter, because it is in my head...

The funny thing is, last year I had strep throat for a month, my throat hurt, and I was convinced it was just in my head, and I kept telling myself that, lol, eventually I gave in and took my temperature (this was around the 26th of December when my soar throat started on the 2nd of December), and I had a high fever, I went in and got checked out, sure enough, a very bad case of strep, lol..so now I am in the opposite end of the spectum...I think I am never sick because I don't know what symptoms are real or not...lol