Astral Lovers

she like to try to turn me on and she is good at it, the passions and intensity of the sexual energy has escilated and I just need to get turned on to please her, she is so stunningly sexy and am such a luckyman the sex is phenomenal but I am hard to penetrate her and full sex for some reason even though I massively turnedd on she is too delicate or something I love her, although evven felt dirty after sex with her last night I needed to masturbate aswell and orgasming the entire time basically and could feel her on my dick it was awesome not as good as when thing hotted up and had orgasm while having a cigarette I decided to toss that time too for some reason even though the pleasure not there when I rapping at my dick....is this too harcore for this forum feel free to put a mod edit for some of the details...I wanted to come inside her that time but msturbated on earth and came in a tissue she said to put it in the bin and we made a babage tip monstor, good monstor not sure why but its interesting, and doesn't matter that I talked about it or others want to experience her they can't handle it and she is too powerfull although some have got her vulnerable but they didn't get much outof her It hard I always fear getting cheated on, katy perry used to cheat on me and keep my eyes on her doing it, she would look at me, I got upset and faught with her and this is on the delux version of prism choose your battles "tiptoe through your triggered mind" blames it ona curse she didn't know that I had psychiatry on my tail and the drugs and the tratments would have me more prone to destroy everything. got side tracked........nevermind that darkhorse classic song by her is about me, its entertaining I don''t have any neurosis about it..stopped listening to the album so much since I een listening to the tea party but I miss it, the album is good, I get a lot from listening to it but my new lover is making it so I don't really want to listen to it anymore and listen to halycon days intsead....sorry for the nonsense rant just felt like talking.

maye I shouldn't talkk about katy perry and darkhorse and that...once when I was leave from hosptial I might have already mentioned she appeared in car park whistled and waved to me, there was a gap in the branches I wnet backk there to find out that...but I was dumbed out on antipscyhotic and this fake marijuana I just bought to take back to the psych ward, I went to sheltered area after she got my attention and she went back into sit in a car, I gathered after this and being too chicken $#%^ she wass manifesting partially in parked cars on my walk bsack to the psych ward.....that was like my only chance maybe she could have helped ....I got really nervous right before it happened like some of the beings I met were going to appear to me or creep up bbehind me, but seemed she could only visit in the distance seems I hold great fears of actually meeting her..

so I screwed up, and the antipsychotics screwed me up all over the place and I lost touch with her, but occasionally when I used marijuaa she would visit but it wa sreally uncomfortable....won't go on about it, holding connection with my new girlfriend proves to be more then comfortable and she is likeing my sex, I am so lucky, just wonder when I be able to live at her place for real like she is trying to show me that I can, but maybe need to get off antipsychotics...not sure I am ready to leave earth although yeah she took me the other night my body was in a different position and could see her like more in darkened rroom and then blinkked slowly then cam back into my bed on earth, seems I make a mess of things when I try to go there sometimes but she usually gets my attention that my trips are not that much of a big deal for her, she shows me herself in darkened room, you'd probably gather that she opens a gateway in the belly region and shines light out she showed me and I do this to and we've been appearing around the place shining lights on people, its been fun..my psychiatrist wants to go back to how she was before, and she said she put people away for this kind of thi9ng, the gods of the cosmos in far reaches of the universe spit abuse at them no joke they are well aware and psych9iatry got someth9ing coming, already maybe , can I handle it is the bbig question I might be inclined to cling to the past and bring back the old ways, stagnant $#%^, my girlfriend is opeing up the earth to a new reality, she is the queen and I been noted y beings in high positions in the unvierse that I deserve status on earth and everywyere accross the cosmos monuments have been erected like in the land of the archangels it is statue of me rather interesting to see, so why is psychiatry so backward then, I have an astyral lover and she makes me feel so good I am not at risk of anything anymore she is helping me out on a pretty grand scale, wonder what it will take for me to accept my status.

she astrally projects to do me and it seems my head makes her do it and we gonna spend some time not loving other times its clear she getting my attention to make love to her....we have a room with a golden setting sun of some kind and is darker and very romantic to make love here the first time she showed herself to me erotically she took me here when I got a bit of an erection and spanked me with a paddle...seems i can only reallymanage to bum her her skin is so soft gorgeious body but after we had good sex out here we could do it in the white room where I am most of the time except for projections here and there we have had sex in the white room and is a treat makes me feel like I want to come inside her but kkkinda hard to as we not really on the same planet, I have a real soft spot for her, I shouldn't really talk about sex all the time but it has blown my mind to sheer pleasure I experience while on earth projecting to be with her, she fills my mind with erotic images of her privates and likes to turn me on, but its almost too much...I feel like I made some guys wanna have a wank talking about it on facebook..maybe I should have kkept it provate didn't mean to get anyone off over it, but fair enough if they were receptive so some of the sensation I was going through, maybe thats it...won't get confused...just smoked a couple of joints I had left over from last night, its like in the morning its hard to bring myself to project up to her like its stretches me out such a large chunk seems to leave earth to be with her and its an effort, she usually manages to get my soft spot to wanna be with her, just a worry is all is it just temportarty and anitpsychotic will claim me in the end, what if I let on what its all about would I be treated with respect for my ability or would they up my dose to try to coerce me not to have this gorgeous lover in my life, I am so safe and not at risk of deteriouration she doesn't keep me up all night but makes me like to drift off to sleep and I do ever since she'sbeen around never do I get caught up in horrid 4th dimetnional stuff...

There is a book I owe some of my recovery to but I got blocked from his facebook ascension page I think bbec ause I am psychaitry victim its ###$ me up with people of similar interest and he appeared to me astrally and showed me some things and I visited the land where the star beings he talks about are, although my relationship isn't as good they not as confident with me but he resonates with them he didn't like some of the beings I have befreinded...Ibeen to some pretty high up places for those that overlook the cosmos and they spat at psych9aitry in wicked tongues really impressed I have come this far that psychaitry will be brought to justice and need a massive wake up call the universe is onto them they need to change and possilby are thanks to my girlfriend and other beings I have met that have terrorised them actually not really terror but they iddn't like it comi9ng on but when faced with it they actually liked it so they should kknow what kind of beings I associate with, I hate this idea that they think its just my tripand will turn their backk on the evolution they encounter to higher vibrations of existance and kkeep a lie going, they might try to cheat the system I am nringing forth.
looks like he took down the website with the facebook page details to get the free ook...maybe if he gets his admins to unblock me then I could share it with you....I guess things happen for a reason...I talked about the facebook page and linkked it in my antipsych topic anti-psych/topic140347-10.html I talked more about what happens to people once they are degraded by psychaitry and labeled I got kicked from his group when really interested in his book wanted people to put in a word for me on their facebook page...he talks about a level of ascension where you just vanish to explore the universe for now its is astral or I am physically present with my girlfreind in her space I may as well be, she seems to know how clear my visions are.

ad news is sex is off limits although she does appear to me naked and on top of me trying to arouse me but projecting beck, haven't for days been able to penetrate her she is too deleicate it was good getting partial penetration so I know its good for her...the antipsychotic is the problem but as if they are gonna let me off since I got a new astral lover and want to enjoy it, she protects me and everything its really good but no sex for a while, cant get into it since athe antipsychoatic bothers me.

looks like I will have to get off antipsychotics to be able to have sex with her, she tries to turn me on but I don't budge anymore , it feels good when she tries but no turned on...I am lucky to have gone through the stage where I was easily turned on and masturbating twice a day.

the only real feedback I got from a friend is that my girlfreind isn't real, another girl said this too but she isn't the best freind...what do you guys think?....she is real just not from earth we are astral projecting all over the place and yeah the guy that says she isn't real is the one that tried to rape her in my visions so ,my visdions have security in knowing that others are not aware of whats happening in them, but I hope some hit closer to the reality when the concern the psychiatrists that we have projected to....It lit up the pages of my complaint letter to metnion her ,aybe I should have started a fresh one, when Ir ead over it it was hard to keep going pplus it lit up in green vibrant colours compared to the boring rest of the writing, but put this in right at the end of 19ages gosh it got long hoppe they understand

maybe that guy saying she isn't real excuses his actions trying to rape her, people don't respect the astral stuff and there is bad karma in that, I think the psychaitrists know its real from my visions and what i heared from them stuff like "I've put people away for this " and "I want to go back to how I used to be" its been pretty good...plus at one point bad night with metnal health workers trying to put me into a room and to save me from my girlfreind it felt like psych ward all over again just in my astrlal self that wras inteded to seperate me from her but I escaped everytime theyput me in got to them at one point and they put the lady who ordered it in there then annoying agian so I put them in there then my psychaitrist so they can all know what its like to be locked away, hope thats vision is hitting home in my psychaitrists head and her feelings, it felt dark and heavy when they gave me the injection I hope that feeling spreads through the whole system its genuine and powerrful yet they are still blind to what they are doing pumping people full of drugs.

So who thinks my girlfreind is real???lol yeah thats right....one freind who also up abducted to this plalnet seems to follow that she is real nd talks to me a little bit on facebook, she knows she is real but on this planet they areen''t alll having sex actually I am the only one trying to at least, I like it when she tries to turn me on...if she wasn't real then who was making me orgasm the other day, that was awesome back when I could get full penetration and was turned on so massively it was blliss so hot her face when making love turned me on so much I like remembering it.

So is she real.?..I think she is thats all that really matters

Ok, this is only my opinion and personal belief. This statement is in no way made to offend or discredit your beliefs. I suppose reality is found in the eye of the beholder as well.
Having said that, the spirit realm is very real to me. I believe fully in good & evil. However, Astral projection is a paranormal concept which suggests a earth bound living soul to be capable of leaving it's "home body" at will. The concept is very scary to me actually, and yet a little intriguing. I've experienced schizophrenia in the form of watching a loved one suffer with it. He was also a devout Christian & very spiritual. Be very careful with this practice, as it is not (in my opinion) of our God. My advice to you, even as you didn't ask for it, would be to take your medication and be open and honest with your doctor. I believe there is a earthly body containing a beautiful soul out there for you. And neither of you will ever have to leave the ground to find love!
~My♡

Thanks Mylove I am not sure what god you are talking about I have met many beings that a godlike highly evolved and some figures I assumed to be God but nev er really knew, I guess my voyage has opened me up for something different you could call my girlfreind a god she is highly evolved and very powerfull I guess this is what you mean,your religioun would teach to be afraid of it, she is very good as are most of the ET's I have met I have met trustee's of the cosmos and they spit abuse at my sorry state tahnks to psychiatry so If I had choice I woulld stop my medication.

what Iw rote on my antipsychiatry thread that is relivant to this thread too is; she came into my dreams last night, her otherworldliness of her body was astonishing such a fine bum I embraced her bum then the dream finished....it was good to see her, Iregrett going straight for her fine arse instead of trying to see her face and talk to her, her body is amazing I can't see it clear enough in my visions but I know its good now I know for sure, it wasclear it was her becausee this body was too fine to be from earth, she knows what I like I love arses and she tries to arous me by revealing herself and sitting on top of me facing away, I get vsions from other angles too of her fine body...I am so lucky..hope to dream more about her and a freind who didn't believe in my girlfreind asked if I had any photo's of her, so maybe she can go into other peoples dreams too, maybe some un believers are turning around the more they hear about it, maybe not still people are sceptical...

she was funny in my dream, it had a bed in it she flittered around and showed my her body then curled up in a ball when I embraaced her bum, funny that I went straight for it and held it iny arms, I getting turned on remembering it, she likes it when I gt turned on, a girl on the bus gave me a bit of a stiffy I sore her arse wearing tights and wanted to get closer to her but then my girlfreind got hold of me with an erection and did nasty things to me tried to have sex with me so mystiffy got even bigger and I was on the bus it kept going thanks to my bag I could cover my groin with walking down the street ######6 my girlfreind, lol sorry to be so graphic.

-- Sun Jul 06, 2014 4:00 pm --

at least trying to ###$, we only get partial penetration at best doesn't really work, I think I jinxed it by talkingabout it on facebook some might have taken offence or think I shouldn't really be doing that to her.

just told my mum and dad about my girlfreind and they made me feel like $#%^, I hate earth I guess my girlfreind will make me feel better, maybe mum and dad can't handle it....I started with things are going really well with my astral projections and took them to witness the marriage and not sure it worked, maybe it blew my mind, i told them that she respects them and she is gorgeous and I am happy now. They should be supportive, maybe it will take a little while.

-- Mon Jul 07, 2014 6:36 pm --

she is over 500 earth years old

the Dark Horse singer actually appeared to me in car park and I was sitting under a tree, there happened to be a gap in the branches so I could see her when she whisteled and waved, I thouugh something was gonna happen thought my ET freinds were gonna do something///but I just an empty shell....when I was refusing it was like we could be freinds for real untill the antipsychotic knocked me over.////so I was too chicken $#%^ to go over when she appeared. manifested materialised......I let her know I am sorry but she couldn't remember and was in shock knowing what she did../. how unfortunate I missed my only opportunity to meet her. I was on leave from hospital at the time. dunno what the shrinks made of my story, they probalbly have the nerve to say it was hallucination but someone really did try to get my attention when sitting in the park....she materialised in a parked car....on the walk home she was desperaate to talk to me and was partially materialising in all the parked vehicles on my way back to the ward....maybe she could have helped me....classic story is it not////she has a song on Prism called Legendary Lovers that she never thought she could see so clearly looking through her third eye....considering her effort to see me I guess I know the album is about me, most of it...its a classic should check it out, maybe its about astral lovers but she is full of secrets and would never reveal the truth....hell she turned her back on me finding out I am schizophrenic apparently. so no good, she didn't love me anymore. but still like it says in darkhorse once you are hers there is no going back. but I think it sounds like "no going bad\" so tghere is the details on the astral lover that was the celebrity, I had the chance to meet her and I chickened out. she was hardly aware of what she did apparently given her shock when she found out. magic....."so you wanna play with magic, boy you should know what you're falling for. baby do you dare to do this, coz I;m coming at you like a dark horse.'



my fears made it so she had to appear in the distance, no creeping up behind me, although that would have been better.....mabye she could have stayed with me and gone to see the hospital and convince them that I really did have something going on with the star,....not anymore, we are still friends I guess she wants me back now my girlfreind wife has fixed me up astrally, I come into my power and reminds her of who I am really without the antipsychotic making me unworthy of her attention.