I dont what this is.

I'm hoping someone here can help me or maybe you know exactly what I'm talking about. I've been going to doctors for so long and I've been given meds for Bi Polar disorder and couple of others but nothing is working.

I always have this feeling that everyone around me is talking about me like if I have my friends over and I leave the room I feel like they say mean things about me.

I dont trust my boyfriend at all I think he cheats on me everytime I go to work its making me so mad. I honestly try not to hang out with people because I hate them for talking about me behind my back but I've never heard them say anything so what if I'm over reacting?! Im now starting to have dreams about him cheating on me almost 3 times a week I think it might be because thats all I think about all day.

I only hang out with 2 people and sometimes I think their doing things behind my back too I never told anyone about this because I always thought it was true untill the other day when I found out my boyfriend didnt cheat on me now I think I'm going crazy. Does anyone else have any of these feelings or can help me out to figure out whats going on?

Sorry the post is so big!

oh yeah and I forgot to add one little thing, this might not seem like it links to everything but I always feel like someone is watching me like if I'm laying in bed I always have to make sure my closet is closed up tight so no one can peek through the crack at me and when I'm in the shower I think some one put a camera in the fan thing (I live in an apartment on the 2nd floor) I have to have all the blinds shut all the time because I think someone is going to peep through my windows.


I cant take it anymore I want it to go away!!!