I Can't Think

I am having a seriously ######6 irritating problem that has gone on ever since I was brought into the system (CPS). I cannot think, consistently or progessively or deeply. Sophisticated thoughts are well beyond my reach, as well as sophisticated or basic personality/character development. I'm able to think thoughts like, "That sucks" or other basic things like "This shouldn't be hard" and "Smiley faces are comical but pointless".

I'm also recycling words from my vocabulary, like, I can't come up with new words to use when I'm thinking about stuff or I just use the same words to describe stuff, and I can't even come up with new words when I intentionally attempt to think up new words.

Maybe,
maybe it's just, like, my peers, or stressors and stuff,

but I honestly feel disable, even though I'm not.

I also can't "think"

And I forgot almost all the stuff about my personality and stuff I worked so hard to organize and get to function, one day in a medical hospital in a peculiar instant; maybe because I was so freaked out by this cop when he slapped me cuz I told him a bunch of crazy stuff that pissed him off? (I lost myself, literally)
I lost all my "details" and I'm just left with a sense of self,

watch out for cops I geuss.

And my biggest problem is that I think the staff here at my group home are controlling my mind somehow and trying to change beliefs and behaviours they think are bad (like, sociopathic stuff, w.e) and I need help with this because if they are, it's not right or fair or American, and it's like a boot in my ass on the way out if you know what I mean.

I really need some help; answers to my questions...

Greatly appreciated.

Sad, are u on medication?

Sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time. I can relate to the not being able to think properly portion of what you've written. When I'm not doing well, it is extremely difficult for me to think beyond "default" mode. (If that makes sense) Do you have peer support services in your area? I know I gain a lot of benefit from peer support. As for the thinking portion, have you tried doing some types of brain game books? Things that get your mind working. Here is a google search on brain games to get you started: https://www.google.com/search?q=brain+g ... 3&ie=UTF-8

If it helps at all, from your post, you seem to have been able to come up with a wide range of wording to use there.

Yeah, I'm medicated.

And yeah, "default" mode..I guess it's stress, or something...

Or, I'm in like,the "Critter State", or something..

Thanks.

What is the "critter state?"

what medication are you on?

Maybe you should mention this to your doctor, perhaps by writing down a list of your symptoms. Have you recently started a new medication?

When I read the title the first thought that went through my mind was that person must be on drugs. My best advice is to stay off drugs and medication. Anyone who has done their research and is not financially benefiting (so don't trust your doctor, professionals, etc) will also agree that drugs/medication do not cure and will only make you worse.

From reading your thread I get the impression of some psychosis. If I was your doctor I would stop giving you drugs, tell you to start taking fish oil daily and doing a good cardio at the gym. However; your doctor probably gets paid to get you hooked on drugs, or you may be forced to take them, in which case, you will never improve and only get worse as time goes on.

Sadly the western world does suffer from a terrible mental health system.

TrapGod, obviously you haven't read the forum rules.
forum-rules.php

It is dangerous to encourage a person not to take prescribed medication, or to go against the advice of their doctors.

You also advised this person and attempted to diagnose them in your comments here.

From reading your thread I get the impression of some psychosis. If I was your doctor I would stop giving you drugs, tell you to start taking fish oil daily and doing a good cardio at the gym. However; your doctor probably gets paid to get you hooked on drugs, or you may be forced to take them, in which case, you will never improve and only get worse as time goes on.

OP, please disregard this member's advice. He is not here in any professional capacity. Please see your own doctor for a thorough assessment and advice.

TrapGod, you will be hearing from me by PM.

I take seroquel and depakote I can't remember the dose.

"Critter state" is an unnofficial term for a state of mind; like when you can't think, presumably from stress. There's a blog post on it. It helps, some.

And the doctor is a ######6 retard who acts like he doesn't know anything, so, yep.

I'll figure it out, I suppose.

But if anyone has had experience with these kinds of problems, or how to deal with them, that'd be great.