Teen mental health issue

Hello everyone, i am 16 years old. I have never question my sanity up until about 6 months ago. It started at first just being sad all the time. I still have good days, but overall i am preety depresed, but it has gotten worse, way worse. I feel very parinoid that bad things are going to happen to me. I hear voices telling me to hurt myself (sucide) and hurt people around me all the time. I dont want to say I hear voices but i cant tell if it is my ego or what. This is very disteressing and depressing. i talked to my mom about it and she said she would make a doctors appointment, but she doesnt under-stand the full severity, she just thinks i am deprresed. What will the docotor ask and say. I am sure it is going to scare the doctor and my mom, hell it scares me. My dad and all my aunts and uncles on his side have mild to severe mental disorders as well as substance abuse. This situation is absolutely terrifying and I wonder what the doctor and my mom are going to do.

Hi,

You didn't have a username, I'm sure you want to stay anonymous, but you don't have to feel ashamed of who you are. I am proud of you for seeing your symptoms and being willing to get help. Help doesn't have to mean psychiatric meds, sometimes being in a support group of others who are going thru this makes you feel part of something bigger, you know your're not isolated and u feel understood. You also see a connection of mental illness from your paternal side and it is fortunate you do not deny it. The more we can speak about our feelings, especially dark disturbing ones the better. Please write down how you are feeling, it helps enormously, like cleansing toxic thoughts leaving you more clear headed. Also if you want to hurt someone, just writing it in a letter every horrible cruel detailed thing you would do to them but never intending to send to them will release that desire. plz stay in touch. Brandi

i feel the same way, my aunt and nana died around the same time and that was hard for me so i was sad, but last christmas i didint go out with my friends, at night i would cry on how bad my life is. its been going on like this for months, no one has noticed how bad i feel, i dont show them. I have good times were im happy. but i started to hurt myself to see how it felt, i was really upset at the time, then i did it again. I dont want to really hurt myself, but wen im really upset i do it. i tink of falling down the stars and wat tings would be like if i die. Am I depressed? I DONT WANT TO TELL ANYONE HOW I FEEL OR THEY MIGHT ThINK IM LOOKING FOR ATTENTION!!! but im not. I dont fell like a normal teenager, i dont want to go out to parties i dont want to have a boyfriend.
I cry for no reasons sometimes, at first i thought it was because of the deaths but now im not so sure. I think im loosing my friends over how i feel and im always fighting with my family.
am i deppressed can someone tell me