[Real Or Dream]

Yeah, first off, I don't even know if this is in the right forum , but , I had an issue and a question. Latley, somtimes I havn't been able to tell if things that have happened, weather [sp?] a day ago, or years ago, were real or a dream. Like for example, say I went to a friends or a store or something after school, sometimes the next day i'll think about it and not even know if it was real or not, cause it just feels like a dream sometimes, i don't remeber being there or what it felt like. It's never happened before, but it has a happened a couple days. I just didnt know if what happened was real or a dream or somthing. Also, I can't remember most of my life, but some of the few things i can remember from when I was younger I don't know if they really happened, or if I dreamed it. It's probably really confusing to understand what i'm writing, but I can't really explain it all too well. I just want to know if this is normal, perhaps why it's happening, and maybe if it's like, some sort of symptom for something. Thanks, and once again, sorry for it being so confusing.

i understand the feeling. sometimes i feel like i'm living inside a dream (you know, the hazy feeling) while i'm actually living it right there and then..

have you ever talked to a psychiatrist or something about this?

do you ever, sort of black out? like do something one day and not remember having done it the next?

Well, yeah, that had happened a couple times, when I don't rememeber doing something. And I don't have a psychologist, I don't like them. And even if I did, i'd have to tell my mother about everything, including this, which I really don't want her to find out about.

sounds to me like a form of dissociative disorder. it's like your mind and your body seperating from one another and working on their own for a while; then coming back together and not knowing what the other part did..

do you have some one in your life you can talk to? like a friend you really trust?

Well.....I used to always talk about my problems with my best friend. I would talk to him all the time and it would make me feel so much better. I don't trust many people but I would die for him, I trusted him alot, hes my buddy, I could talk about ANYTHING with him. But I havn't talked to him in a while, he hasn't been online [AIM], but he just got on to highschool and has lots of work so that s why he cant be on alot any more, thats what he said. But even when I get to talk again, i'm not gonna "talk" anymore, like about my problems and stuff...I feel like he doesn't care or he is annoyed with it, which I asked him once but he said he finds it interesting and likes when I talk to him about it. But I am kind of afraid of taling to him again or seeing him again, I don't know why really. Maybe 'cause I think he "knows too much" or something, since he's the only person that knows about my problems and everything. So I havn't talked to anyone in a while. Last time I talked to him was a few months ago, last time I talked about my porblems was probably a couple months before that. I like to talk to people about things but now that I'm afraid to talk to him again [which seems impossible, i never thought this could happen, I dont even know why it did], and I have no one else to talk to, it kind of hurts and I've just been getting scared because I feel alone. And I don't want to be alone, I can't. My mom doesn't even know about anything, 'cause i'm abit embarrassed , and I know something bad will happen. also. if she did know, i'd probably have to talk to a therepist person, which I don't like, they make me nervous. So, to answer your question, I do not have anyone to talk to. [Sorry 'bout the long post]

it's okay hun. too bad you don't have anyone to talk to.
if you feel like you wanna talk, i'm here for you. on the forum, through pm's, messenger...

Ok, thanks