So Disrespectful

I love my friends and family, I respect their success and them, yet everytime i'm over at someone's house i find myself pocketing things. It's odd because from what I've read most people steal meaningless things, but at my friends' houses i only get the impulse strong when it's something i want or could use.

And that sounds dumb, like, "just stop yourself, it's isn't a blind urge to steal everything," but that's it... it is blind even though I single things out. I don't steal from stores (even though I have seriously considered it and even made plans on how to do so successfully) just from people's houses or public places. I feel so guilty afterwards, but only months later.

Do most people (kleptos) have a targeted urge to steal certain objects? I keep trying to restrain myself, to reason that they'll know it was me, but I end up taking things anyways; shirts, money, drugs, toys, games, makeup, electronics, books, anything that looks like it might make me happy. When i get this urge my vision changes color, my heart beats fast and i love the rush, as well as the bonus of my stolen object.

I could understand my urge if it was a non-emotional addiction from a store or something, but these are people I know. I just don't care when I have an item in my sight. How do I stop the disrespect?

Hi, ravenkiko! Do you think you might be stealing from people you know because they're the ones you want to get emotional gratification from? Maybe you long for the "rush" because of some emotional need and it's people we care about who usually give us affection.
Have you had therapy?

I have not had therapy. Your theory would make sense except for I only steal things I want, not just anything to make a connection or have a piece of them.

You could look for a therapist who has helped people with kleptomania before or for some organization that offers therapy and support.
Maybe you just steal from friends because you're comfortable with them and it doesn't have to be the objects that make you feel close to them, maybe it all happens on another level.
Hey, have you ever felt like other kids had more than you and that they could have things that you couldn't?

I was a poor child, but I don't remember coveting others' things. In fact i felt guilty when I did have wealth. Maybe subconciously I was jealous, though.

You felt guilty when you had wealth? How come?

Ever since I was a tween, I stole makeup. When I was visiting I would use the bathroom and have a look in the cupboards for provisions. I was caught twice shoplifting.

I worked for a lady as a cleaner and she paid me a pittance. The house was filthy so my efforts were hardly noticeable. She hoarded so much good $#%^. Cosmetics, clothes and loose change lying everywhere. Oh, and lots of chocolate in every room. The kids lived like pigs and I resented the teen daughter for having everything I didn't have at her age, not just materially but opportunistically. I took small things which were cute or sophisticated. I didn't resent their wealth so much as their vulgar disregard and disrespect for it so I didn't think they would notice anything missing.