Random Thoughts... I wanna hear 'em!

no-mans-land wrote:

MacBuddhaBurger wrote:I'm tired of all this arguing about potatoes.

Oops, I didn´t mean to hurt your ego.

Volcano turtle neck shirt with Nutella stains and pecan clusters.

Being called crazy, never gave me satisfaction.

I think the end has come for me. Noe one believes me. this is the second time i have tried to tell a woman at a bar that i am on disability and haven't worked since I was 20. I am now 50. they tell me i am lying. BTW i went out. The dentist is stealing all my money. I am frozen. I cant stand this anymore. Maybe i should be drunk in the middle of the day to send a message that i am not normal. Suicide, what about that. I need a sure method. I have no one to talk to. but ok. im off. im alien inhuman good, sorry im drunk. the human voice. kill me quick. haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XovoAKVOPOM
im crying and laughing oh. the sounds of people in the house are killing me. there is no way out

As you see I was rather dramatic last night. Drinking and the internet don't go well together. Oh well.

Are you doing better now?

Cracked

I wonder what's worse: Being so worried that my boyfriend is deceiving me that I go through his things, interrogate and spy on him; or being so worried that my boyfriend is deceiving me that I avoid going through his things at all cost (to the point where I avoid the "Active Rentals" menu on the TV like the plague because I don't even wanna know what he WATCHES), & want to know as little as possible about where he goes or what he does. Because I'm terrified of catching him lying or doing/watching/saying/liking something I disapprove of. ._.

It was so much easier being with the guys whose Myspace profiles I didn't mind hacking, & who I wanted to know everything about. I'm so afraid to discover any uncomfortable truths about my boyfriend that I prefer to cover my eyes to everything.

CrackedGirl wrote:Are you doing better now?

Cracked

I'm going trough my usual anxiety. It's like a stream that never really goes away. I have noise sensitivity. But the house is quiet at the moment. And I'm also using earplugs today.

Thanks for asking.

c2i wrote:

CrackedGirl wrote:Are you doing better now?

Cracked

I'm going trough my usual anxiety. It's like a stream that never really goes away. I have noise sensitivity. But the house is quiet at the moment. And I'm also using earplugs today.

Thanks for asking.

No worries and I hope things improve more for you

Hugs

Cracked

Ash Wednesday is probably the only day of the year when people in my country might feel ostracized for not having marks on our foreheads.