Random Thoughts... I wanna hear 'em!

Tyler wrote:teeth

Yeah, I guess that does have the potential of being uncomfortable.

I'm always very interested in symbolism, so I wonder whether that's your subconsciousness catastrophizing? Or if front teeth are metaphorical tools? Or masks? Or...?

For instance, alligators are symbolic of primordial instinct and raw intention and ferocity --- and spiritually speaking, they're territorial/protective and indomitable beings.

They're practically modern day dinosaurs
Ancient apex predators (aside from the occasional python or anaconda that takes them down).

I won't go further into their symbolism, and aside from thinking alligators are adorable and wanting one as a pet, dreaming that I suddenly had the responsibility of a baby one was unnerving and daunting.

Not only does it inverse their meaning to me and the reverence I've placed upon them, but it also thrusts a huge amount of responsibility onto me.

I like getting to choose what commitments and burdens of responsibility I sign up for because both are big deal to me.

No only that, but anything that is profoundly vulnerable and impressionable is on my "run like hell" list.
I don't want a baby anything let alone something that can grow up and be so deadly.

Obviously, you can never domesticate any reptile; however, some species are predisposed to being very docile (like my currents) whilst others are predisposed to remaining super aggressive (or completely unpredictable) and everything in between.

Alligators as species can go either way temperament-wise, and in my mind, that means the responsibility is primarily on its human.

Big commitment and responsibility for something profoundly vulnerable with no preparation and that I did not ask for --- but also quite desirable since I want a full grown one as a pet.

Tangent:
Caimans as a species are known for being exponentially more aggressive even though they're so much smaller.

To go on with your theme of dreams...


I was in a cathedral like building. There was this old man, shirtless, body more built that Schwarzenegger in his prime, teaching me something. Everyone is telling me that I need to go to college, so I go to college for both culinary and beauty. I'm worried about how I'm going to afford this. Alternatively, it's at a university that's hours away. How am I going to get there? What about my birds? Then, the outdoor cat that I feed somehow gets inside the basement of this cathedral, where all my animals are. My one lizard jumps out and straight into this cats mouth. Before I can do anything, he's dead, and the cat is gone. Then, as time goes on, the old man gets stabbed three times. He's unfazed. He asks about the man's chest paintings, and he says that he's a vampire. Then, the old man who was stabbed turns into this giant vampire, and cuts the guy in half. Then, me, still worrying about the previously mentioned things, goes to to see that the lizard is not dead, but needs to be put out of his misery. I call my mom, hysterical, who doesn't see what the big deal is. I go back and fourth between the old dude, the university stuff, and the animals. Then, the incredible hulk, albino Wolverine, Gambit and Captain Janeway from Star Trek Voyager show up, and low and behold, they' can transform into twelve foot tall vampires too.

Then I go back down to check on the animals after cancelling the beauty part of my University, only to see that lizard moving around, inside the tank with my other lizard. By the way, it looked nothing like the lizard at this point. It was longer, had a smile on its face, and did everything. They were just chilling while the X-Men were up stairs fighting as vampires. Then, I suddenly come to the realization that "oh no, the birds!" I can only find two of them - the lovebird and the one conure. I hunt, scream their names, and eventually find them all in good condition. The cat was back though, and I kicked it square in the face (which I would do to defend my birds).


Then I woke up. Nothing about tooth loss though

Tyler wrote:To go on with your theme of dreams...


I was in a cathedral like building. There was this old man, shirtless, body more built that Schwarzenegger in his prime, teaching me something. Everyone is telling me that I need to go to college, so I go to college for both culinary and beauty. I'm worried about how I'm going to afford this. Alternatively, it's at a university that's hours away. How am I going to get there? What about my birds? Then, the outdoor cat that I feed somehow gets inside the basement of this cathedral, where all my animals are. My one lizard jumps out and straight into this cats mouth. Before I can do anything, he's dead, and the cat is gone. Then, as time goes on, the old man gets stabbed three times. He's unfazed. He asks about the man's chest paintings, and he says that he's a vampire. Then, the old man who was stabbed turns into this giant vampire, and cuts the guy in half. Then, me, still worrying about the previously mentioned things, goes to to see that the lizard is not dead, but needs to be put out of his misery. I call my mom, hysterical, who doesn't see what the big deal is. I go back and fourth between the old dude, the university stuff, and the animals. Then, the incredible hulk, albino Wolverine, Gambit and Captain Janeway from Star Trek Voyager show up, and low and behold, they' can transform into twelve foot tall vampires too.

Then I go back down to check on the animals after cancelling the beauty part of my University, only to see that lizard moving around, inside the tank with my other lizard. By the way, it looked nothing like the lizard at this point. It was longer, had a smile on its face, and did everything. They were just chilling while the X-Men were up stairs fighting as vampires.

That dream was moving in a lot of directions.
Were you manic or hypomanic at the time?

Are you feeling pressured (by yourself, others or circumstance) to make a decision or take an action or change something? If so, are you hesitant about it?

Cathedrals can to encompass either personal beliefs or the beliefs and expectations of others (or societal norms / rules).

Do you like cooking at all?

Is it just a practicality/chore/obligation?

Focus on appearances / aesthetics, is this important or desirable to you?

Or do you think it's more of an imposition?

Or are you indifferent?

College (the path to become something or develop/enforce a part of who you are & decisions).

Basements usually represent things we're hiding or protective of or things we've buried or stored away (even possibly from ourselves).

Vampires = people who "suck us dry" or prey on us or take without giving back or don't "pull their weight"

Given the most chaos and violence and distress is occurring in the basement rather than surface level

The cat could be an outsider or an invasion of your boundaries and predatorial whilst the lizard, along with being your pet, is more symbolic of intuition and perceptiveness.

Are you allowing someone or something to "get to you"?

Tyler wrote:Then, I suddenly come to the realization that "oh no, the birds!" I can only find two of them - the lovebird and the one conure. I hunt, scream their names, and eventually find them all in good condition. The cat was back though, and I kicked it square in the face (which I would do to defend my birds).

A good nature to normally be kind and feed the outsider cat, but when it comes down to it:
regardless of the distress it causes you and your good nature, you're going to be true to what you value as opposed to external influences. 

As always, I think I may need to add a disclaimer to my posts, feel free to ignore any or all questions.

I was just being creative.
Some people think examining dream symbolism is dumb and irrelevant.

_____________________

I tend to dream of wild animals coming up to me - and kind of trapping me.

I'm usually afraid of them because they can and should hurt me (by their nature), but they end up just being around me instead.

Almost none of them try to hurt me .... as long as I don't try to escape

One of those types of dreams was about a porcupine.

It was coming towards me.

I was cowering and bracing myself because it didn't seem to notice me and if, when it did, I spooked it, I would end up stuck with a ton of quills
^ Painful and, due to the barbs on its quills, extremely difficult to get out.

I'm sitting and it comes to my front and I do reiki in hopes of it making its way past me without sticking me with its quills.
But instead, it likes the reiki so much it snuggles up to me including between my legs.

I'm afraid of making it mad, so I allow it while trying to discourage it without trying to shove it away (and thus get stuck with quills). It stays at my feet and I'm stuck in a tiny cramped space with it.

Next thing I know, I have multiple thin glass rods inside of me.

In real life, I really do have glass rods because I used to do some flameworking making beads and stuff. And they were expensive so I wouldn't want to leave them behind.

In my dream, I put the glass rods there because I was going away and apparently it was good storage idea to me.

But once I realized they were inside me, I'm too damned afraid to move because the ends are sharp and I don't want to get torn up trying to get away from the porcupine.

So I'm trapped chillin' with the porcupine who's very nice but will hurt me with its quills (or I'll hurt myself with the glass) if I try to escape.

Maybe your shiitake mushrooms will taste better if you put some doughnut icing on them?

I recently hit 5000 posts.

Real money, dawg!

Apparently I have 2.37 posts a day. I saw that and asked myself, "when did this happen?"

How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?

Oh, butterscotch, I read this and never replied to it...

DaturaInnoxia wrote:

Tyler wrote:To go on with your theme of dreams...


I was in a cathedral like building. There was this old man, shirtless, body more built that Schwarzenegger in his prime, teaching me something. Everyone is telling me that I need to go to college, so I go to college for both culinary and beauty. I'm worried about how I'm going to afford this. Alternatively, it's at a university that's hours away. How am I going to get there? What about my birds? Then, the outdoor cat that I feed somehow gets inside the basement of this cathedral, where all my animals are. My one lizard jumps out and straight into this cats mouth. Before I can do anything, he's dead, and the cat is gone. Then, as time goes on, the old man gets stabbed three times. He's unfazed. He asks about the man's chest paintings, and he says that he's a vampire. Then, the old man who was stabbed turns into this giant vampire, and cuts the guy in half. Then, me, still worrying about the previously mentioned things, goes to to see that the lizard is not dead, but needs to be put out of his misery. I call my mom, hysterical, who doesn't see what the big deal is. I go back and fourth between the old dude, the university stuff, and the animals. Then, the incredible hulk, albino Wolverine, Gambit and Captain Janeway from Star Trek Voyager show up, and low and behold, they' can transform into twelve foot tall vampires too.

Then I go back down to check on the animals after cancelling the beauty part of my University, only to see that lizard moving around, inside the tank with my other lizard. By the way, it looked nothing like the lizard at this point. It was longer, had a smile on its face, and did everything. They were just chilling while the X-Men were up stairs fighting as vampires.

That dream was moving in a lot of directions.
Were you manic or hypomanic at the time? I don't remember, sorry

Are you feeling pressured (by yourself, others or circumstance) to make a decision or take an action or change something? If so, are you hesitant about it? Very

Cathedrals can to encompass either personal beliefs or the beliefs and expectations of others (or societal norms / rules). Wat

Do you like cooking at all? I mean, I bake for a living

Is it just a practicality/chore/obligation? Literally

Focus on appearances / aesthetics, is this important or desirable to you? Yeah, I guess

Or do you think it's more of an imposition? wat

Or are you indifferent? I like birds

College (the path to become something or develop/enforce a part of who you are & decisions).

Basements usually represent things we're hiding or protective of or things we've buried or stored away (even possibly from ourselves). It's where my birds were. I'm very protective of them

Vampires = people who "suck us dry" or prey on us or take without giving back or don't "pull their weight"Half of my coworkers

Given the most chaos and violence and distress is occurring in the basement rather than surface level

The cat could be an outsider or an invasion of your boundaries and predatorial whilst the lizard, along with being your pet, is more symbolic of intuition and perceptiveness. No, literally, it was my one cat that got out and refuses to come back in

Are you allowing someone or something to "get to you"? Almost every god damn day of my life

Tyler wrote:Then, I suddenly come to the realization that "oh no, the birds!" I can only find two of them - the lovebird and the one conure. I hunt, scream their names, and eventually find them all in good condition. The cat was back though, and I kicked it square in the face (which I would do to defend my birds).

A good nature to normally be kind and feed the outsider cat, but when it comes down to it:
regardless of the distress it causes you and your good nature, you're going to be true to what you value as opposed to external influences. 

As always, I think I may need to add a disclaimer to my posts, feel free to ignore any or all questions.

I was just being creative.
Some people think examining dream symbolism is dumb and irrelevant.

_____________________

I tend to dream of wild animals coming up to me - and kind of trapping me.

I'm usually afraid of them because they can and should hurt me (by their nature), but they end up just being around me instead.

Almost none of them try to hurt me .... as long as I don't try to escape

One of those types of dreams was about a porcupine.

It was coming towards me.

I was cowering and bracing myself because it didn't seem to notice me and if, when it did, I spooked it, I would end up stuck with a ton of quills
^ Painful and, due to the barbs on its quills, extremely difficult to get out.

I'm sitting and it comes to my front and I do reiki in hopes of it making its way past me without sticking me with its quills.
But instead, it likes the reiki so much it snuggles up to me including between my legs.

I'm afraid of making it mad, so I allow it while trying to discourage it without trying to shove it away (and thus get stuck with quills). It stays at my feet and I'm stuck in a tiny cramped space with it.

Next thing I know, I have multiple thin glass rods inside of me.

In real life, I really do have glass rods because I used to do some flameworking making beads and stuff. And they were expensive so I wouldn't want to leave them behind.

In my dream, I put the glass rods there because I was going away and apparently it was good storage idea to me.

But once I realized they were inside me, I'm too damned afraid to move because the ends are sharp and I don't want to get torn up trying to get away from the porcupine.

So I'm trapped chillin' with the porcupine who's very nice but will hurt me with its quills (or I'll hurt myself with the glass) if I try to escape.

Happy birthday Pokelova!

MacB's real name is Lars Von Trier.

Little did I know "Fiance" is a man, and "Fiancee" is a woman. I didn't even know "Fiance" was a word.


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