What inspired your username?

When I'm feeling ill I always tend to say "I can't even life" lmao

I chose "Auxiliary" as it means "supporting role" which is what I try to aim for. Well that, and I also think the word in itself is sort of cool. I chose "11" simply because they're the first set of dual digits that came to mind, and also fits well with "Auxiliary" IMO; alternatively I could've chose "100" or "99", but "11" was the better fit.

because life is just something you deal with between naps.

also people are always snapping their fingers in my face and saying "Wake up!" I'm sick of it. I used to say defensively "I am!" but now I ask "Why?" or if I am feeling toxic, I lean in close and say with quiet, deliberate authority "I...can't."

I wish snakes lived on my face so people would leave me alone.

Assorted drugs.

MacBuddhaBurger wrote:Assorted drugs.

Never understood this expression. Did you go through the alphabet?

candy.

Rigning wrote:

MacBuddhaBurger wrote:Assorted drugs.

Never understood this expression. Did you go through the alphabet?

Know.

It's like perfectly imperfect, I'm unhappily happy. Happily unhappy sounded bad. LOL I'm not unhappy, in general, but perfectly imperfect sounded too cliche, but I like a little cliche in my life.

My personality inspired my username. I am not boisterous or loud, or the class clown. I'm quiet and reserved and I try to keep to myself. As for the numbers, it's the ages of 25-myself and my 38-husband, our ages we were when we had our first baby.

A couple things inspired my username.

The first thing: during my first stay at a hospital due to a suicide attempt I met a really sweet girl who was in the midst of a manic episode. She said what led her there was a counselor/therapist she had talked to before told her to "stop and smell the roses", and it "opened her eyes"... it basically triggered her manic episode.

Looking back, I believe my depressive episode had psychotic features, because I too took those words as a sign of sorts. When the girl was explaining herself I felt this connection, like she was onto something. I soon began hearing/seeing the phrase EVERYWHERE (TV, magazines, signs, movies...) and thought it meant something greater. I still feel that jolt of "this means something" when I hear the phrase, see a rose, etc.

The second thing: During my search for more "signs" I heard this song - which basically describes every relationship I have with someone. thanks to my mood issues.

I beg your pardon, I never promised you a rose garden
Along with the sunshine, there's gotta be a little rain sometime
When you take you gotta give, so live and let live, and let go
I beg your pardon, I never promised you a rose garden