How do you feel today?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgJ00YjPWWE

-- Sun Apr 21, 2013 11:01 pm --

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qxu5cvW-ds

Anxious

Going through withdrawals from my medicine. Not too bad as far as WDs go, still not liking it one bit. Just glad this seems to be the peak and I can still move/breathe. Don't even want to talk about the situation with the doctors right now. It's like they get word of me now and go "oh god.. not her! CANCELIT CANCELIT CANCELIT NOW!!!" Or "shhhhh, we're not home.. beeeeeeeeeeeep."

Pissed

hah, i just worked it out. It was because i appeared to "fall for" the sob story... well I didn't fall for it - people just satiate their convenient need to believe by doing things like missing out the meaning of the "if" in sentences. If they go back and look for the "if", they might spot one there that their own emotional needs just conveniently warped to fit their own wants.

-- Tue Apr 23, 2013 9:56 pm --

oh, and apart from having to deal with people acting like twats, yeah fine thanks been doing alright.

Excited, optimistic, nervous.

relieved... night after night... haunted... not knowing... stolen away... ignorance... frustration... anger... hatred.... closed doors....



...time for a rest

Not too sure tbh. A bit all over the place today, one minute i'm great and the next i'm crying

feeling apprehensive about things. I don't trust myself which is why I don't want to do something. I don't trust that my emotions will stay under control and that I won't get wrapped up in reading between the lines with what people might be suggesting. things have been ok for a while because I have been avoiding stuff, I just fear my heart is going to get carried away again. I don't wanna put myself through heartache again.

:/

Bit stressed, been around people all day :S.