How do you feel today?

I feel anxious.

Like my life is changing, not sure if for better or for worse. I also started regularly reading a monthly horoscope, not sure if I'm becoming superstitious or I've always been. Not like I think it completely makes sense, but it's comforting to read about the position of the planets for some reason.

I started celebrating December way too early.

I can't sleep

-- Sat Dec 24, 2022 2:25 am --

I can't sleep

This past year wasn't too bad (for me) but it made me realize how much things aren't really under my control. They are, up to a certain point, but beyond it is..I won't say luck, I don't know what it is. We're just branches on the wind, as the poem puts it.

A bit anxious but not unhappy. I just thought I would be done with my obligations by now and I am not. I was hoping to complete something around Sept-Oct and I can understand a day or week-long delay, or even a month, but a couple of months seems unusual. On the other hand, I remember once being late to a sort of a must-attend event, and needing to wait half a year to attend it again, and just because I was late the first time, I got to be a part of a really cool event/opportunity later on. It doesn't mean I didn't make some missteps along the way, I clearly did or I'd manage to be finished with this way earlier. And I probably argued with people way more than was necessary. I recently read arrogance stems from fear, I might have been more arrogant than confident this year, but I also feel like the minute I say something out loud it comes off as rude, and the alternative is to keep quiet which is not that fun. Just hoping it will make sense in the long run that it turned out this way with the delays.

Other than than, seems like a nice day and I definitely need a new hairstyle.

I feel tired and overwhelmed.

Lot of little things become important and give me stress. Or maybe they are important things.
It's like all give me stress.

I don't know why.

Hey Philonoe - I hope you have a better week coming up. I can certainly relate to the concept of how to manage stressors.

Thank you Otter!

I feel close to burnout in my job.

Many little things then it's too much.

I don't sleep well I can't take distance. Too much insecurity too much pressure. Or I don't know what. I feel overwhelmed.

In the last year the work environment changed much. The management realised many people are unhappy or sick.
Then they decided to pay external people to find solutions through talk groups.

But the problem is not talk the problem is the work environment